Complicated - Zach Herron

Chapter Four : Last minute plane rides!

It's been three weeks since Zach left with the boys to finish off their tour. I've grown distant towards the girls and Zach, it's not intentionally but I just can't work myself up to starting a conversation anymore. I've laid in bed for days at a time only getting up to eat or go to the bathroom.

Things haven't been the same lately. Personally I thought I was getting better, but then everything just got worse than before. Gavin has been calling and I feel as if that's the reason why but I haven't answered him. Although I miss hearing his voice, but I know that I can't allow myself to undergo that pain again.

After my last day with Zach, I haven't been able to get him off my mind. He's there when I wake up and he's there before I fall asleep. My heart longs for him and my body aches for his touch but deep down, I know he deserves better than me. I'm just some girl from a tour stop who he met at the right time, that's all I am and that's all I'll ever be.

We may have little talks about us loving each other or how we are meant to be but I can't allow myself to open up for another relationship. I'm not ready for something like that, I'm not even ready for the outside world to begin with.

"Nat? May I come in please?" Dani asked from the doorway.

I gave her a weak smile letting her know it's okay. She quickly made her way over to me before I changed my mind like last time she tried to talk about things.

"How are you feeling?" She asked moving a piece of hair out of my face.

"Do you want the truth or do you want a lie?"

She stood up and looked down at me, "Come on now Nat. It's been three weeks since you've left the house. I thought we were making progress but now you've closed up even more. Zach has been trying to call for the past two days and you won't answer him. He's worried sick about you, he hasn't even been wanting to do any shows. He sits in his bunk all day waiting for you to reach out to him. Let him in, Natalie. He wants to fix you and be the person you need dearly right now but you refuse to let him do that." She said getting frustrated.

"You know I can't do that."

"And why the hell not Natalie Mae? Why the hell can't you let someone love you're complicated ass! God sometimes I wish you could see how you make the people who love you feel!" She yelled before walking out slamming my door.

Well there goes my side kick, hating my guts just as much as I do. Way to go Natalie. You have officially managed to push everyone there for you out of your life.

Before Zach left for the next tour stop, he gave me his necklace for me to hold whenever I needed him here with me. Normally I wear his hoodie but sadly the scent of him is gone and no longer helps much. I have truly managed to ruin my life more than my ex did. How does that even make sense?

*ding*

My screen lit up on my computer and I sighed. Great Zach wants to FaceTime, the joy.

"We have a problem." Jonah said as soon as I answered the call.

"What?" I asked, getting annoyed that it wasn't even Zach who called.

"Zach's gone! We can't find him and He left his phone. Nat we are worried about him. We need you to fly to LA tonight." Daniel said taking the phone with fear in his voice.

"What! Oh my god! I'm coming! I'll be there as soon as I can!" I rushed out before running to find the girls.

"Dani! Vaeh! I'm sorry! I'm sorry for being a bitch! I'm sorry but I need you guys right now. We have to go to La. Zach's missing" I said running into the living room with tears pouring down my face.

"He's missing." I whispered before falling to my knees crying.

They ran over to me and hugged me tightly.

"It's going to be okay, we will find him."

We used the last little bit of our money to buy plane tickets. We each only brought a backpack with two and three outfits. We weren't worried about packing.

I just need to make sure he's safe. I need to know that he's not hurt. I can't believe I hurt the one person who made me feel so whole. How could I of all people hurt someone when I know what that feels like.

Ihave never been the type of like plane rides so honestly the next hour is going to be hell for me. Dani hasn't spoke to me since our little argument but she has been hugging me and holding my hand.

"I told him all I would do is hurt him and look at what happened." I whispered looking down at my lap.

"Don't talk like that, you are only trying to get over someone you've loved deeply. Zach just happened to come into your life at a difficult time for you." Vaeh said quietly, trying not to wake up Dani who was next to her.

"I'm confused about my feeling for him and I pushed him away instead of figuring out how I feel. I shouldn't have done that and you know I'm right about that." I explained, admitting to my mistake.

"Everything will be alright. I promise."