Love and Lies ~ TsukkiYama

Chapter 1

Warnings:

This story includes things like talk of eating and mental disorders, slight cursing, angst, Homophobia, and things like being sick.

Viewer discretion is advised (though you're probably going to read this anyway)

Tsukishima and Yamaguchi walked down the narrow road that led out of the school.

Yamaguchi chatted happily to his best friend, who nodded in response.

"I need to check in my school bag for something, hold this" Tsukishima thrust a notebook at Yamaguchi and started digging around in his bag.

When he finished, Tsukishima looked at where they were and checked his watch.
"I need to get home now, see you tomorrow Yama."

Tsukishima walked off, lifting up one hand to say goodbye and putting in his headphones.

Yamaguchi was left standing on the street, still clasping the notebook that didn't belong to him.

"Today's practise must've tired him out, he usually never forgets things." He thought, starting to walk home before shaking his head.

"I'll give it back to him. He might need it for homework."
And with that, he turned around and walked to the familiar road where Tsukishima lived.

Yamaguchi has been over countless times, he almost lived there, and vise-versa.

The first time Yamaguchi came over, his mother was so shocked that he had made a friend, she dropped a plate...

Knocking on the bright red door, Yamaguchi looked around nervously. He felt on edge for some reason, like something bad was waiting around the corner.

Tsukishima's brother answered the door, greeting Yamaguchi with a warm smile.
"Hey, Tadashi! Kei is upstairs, you can just go straight up."

His house hasn't changed at all since the last time he was there, all the pictures in the same places, and all the furniture stayed unmoved. The picture of Tsukishima and Yamaguchi stayed hung on the wall. They were only around the age of 10.

It was one of their favourite memories when they went to the beach together and swam in the sea. Tsukishima caught a crab and they made it a house out of the sand.

When Yamaguchi imagined hard enough, he can still feel the sand, taste the salty water on his lips, and hear the waves crashing onto the sand.

Tsukishima was nicer to everyone back then. He smiled and laughed, like any other kid would've. But then, things changed, and with time, he changed, a lot.

Yamaguchi missed it. He missed seeing Tsukki smile and laugh, he still did, but rarely.

If he could, he would give up his own happiness if it meant his best fiend could have it instead.

But life, sadly, doesn't work that way.

Yamaguchi pushed the door open to Tsukishima's room, expecting him to be sitting at his desk and listening to his emo music, or laying on his bed and using his phone.

He expected him to say "what are you doing here Yamaguchi? Knock before you walk in." And Yamaguchi would shake his head, laugh and say his usual "Sorry Tsukki".

He just wished it would go how he expected.

When he opened the door, nobody was there. The room was empty. The only place where Tsukishima could be was the bathroom that was connected to his bedroom.

Yamaguchi shivered, he felt uneasy. He could hear his heart pounding in his chest and his shaky breaths as he tried to collect himself.

Shaking all over, he slowly creaked the bathroom door open. His eyes widened in horror with what he saw. The notebook he was holding in one hand slipped and fell onto the floor making a small thud.

His best friend, the guy he liked, was half lying on the ground next to the toilet, looking deathly pale.

"T-Tsukki?"
Tsukishima looked over at the door, gasping a little when he saw Yamaguchi.
"Y-Yama.."

Yamaguchi glanced over to the counter, a small bottle of pills labelled 'Laxatives' was lying on it. But he never took it in properly, he was more worried about Tsukishima.

Tsukishima stood up, before tripping and falling back down. Tears trickled down Yamaguchi's face as he collapsed to the floor, sobbing.

"I-I'm fine. Don't worry about me."

"You're not fine Tsukki! I'm not stupid, I know what you're doing. Why? Tell me, please. Please Tsukki."

Tsukishima had to move over to the crumpled up Yamaguchi, and pat his back.

"I'm fine, really. I ate some bad meat, and I had to get it out of my system. I swear I'm fine, I swear on...volleyball. If I lie to you, I'll stop playing volleyball."

"R-really Tsukki? Promise to me you're not lying. I- I don't want to lose you." He clutched at the tall blond, making his shirt wet with tears.

"I promise"

What Yamaguchi didn't know...

Was that Tsukishima crossed his fingers.

A/N: So sorry that it went from 1 to like 100 really quickly, I didn't know what to do. I stressed about this more than I should have. Also, it's my first Haikyuu!! Fanfiction, so... I tried, sorry if its trash.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter (at least a little bit) and have a good day ( '∀｀)

UPDATE (10/1/2021): I COMPLETELY FORGOT HE SWORE ON VOLLEYBALL JUST PRETEND THAT TSUKKI'S DRAMATIC ASS WAS LYING ABOUT THAT