Future Complex

6.

Ethans p.o.v

"Why don't you try it on me?"
I was shocked.
"Wha- what do you mean 'try it on you'? Try on what exactly?" I had the idea obviously. I was just truly and utterly hoping and praying that I was incorrect.
"Try to look at how I die" I see that I was not.
When those words escaped his mouth I felt my heart drop. No. I was not going to go through that.
"No-! Luke, that's horrible... And it's not real! Even if it was- I wouldn't do it anyway! Do you really think that I would willingly look at the death of a person that I hold as dear as you?"

"Obviously not" he murmured.
"But are you sure it isn't real? That's right, you aren't. And I can see it's eating at you. Eating at your soul. Even if you say you don't want to do it, I know you want the truth. Come on. I know you're hurting. I want to help you ease that" he brought his hands in the air, cupping my face.
"And also, I want to know how I die. It better be something sick, like an alien abduction!"
I knew he was trying to make this whole situation more lighthearted with speaking like this, but it wasn't helping. Not at all.
"Luke...I don't think you understand how traumatizing it actually is. I don't think I have the strength to risk going through the same pain again" trying to explain it to him was like explaining it to a tree.
He was very stubborn. I was aware of that.
He wouldn't step down until he had his way if he thinks that what he's doing is the right thing.
It was one of his best and worst qualities.
"Let's just try it. I want to prove to you that there's nothing to be scared of" out of absolutely nowhere, he grabbed my hands and brought them closer to him.
"What the hell!? Stop!" I forcefully set them free from his grasp.
What's gotten into him? I thought he'd try to continue verbally persuading me into agreeing, not that he would physically demand it.
"I'm sorry-! I forgot about the touching thing..."
I did not like being touched with any sort of furcefullness if I wasn't previously made aware of it, if it wasn't completely necessary or I wasn't the one initiating it.

I got up and walked over to his window.
"It's fine. Just don't do it again" I took a long deep breath, looking outside at the stunning sunset.

I was thinking.
We were both quiet. We both felt guilty now.

Maybe I should try and test it. Maybe I'm enabling myself. Maybe he's right...

"How did you want to try it? Like, what do you wanna do? I don't know how to trigger it" I was still looking out the window, feeling bad about giving in when I was making such a huge fuzz about it before.

Now, I couldn't see Luke, but I was almost certain that when I said that he had literal sparkles in his eyes. He got his way.