Is This Love

What is this feeling

Hey guys i am sorry this is a slow book but it will get better this chapter there id a lot of close calls if you know what i mean. 😜

Y

POV
These past few weeks have been crazy.  My instagram has blown up, i have reached 200.6k followers on tik tok.  I am so close to one million subscribers to YouTube.  I was in my room touching up on my make up. Turning out to be like this

I jumped up and ran to my closet i chose this outfit.

I let my hair down from my messy bun and brushed it and parted it in the middle and then put on a hoodie.  I could hear sam and colby screaming just next door.  I walked out to corey and devyn vlogging. I waved at the camera and walked downstairs to the kitchen. Kat and b\f\f

was in the living room doing a truth or drink video.  Everyone was busy doing videos.  I knew aaron would be playing fortnight. I pulled out my phone to see my comments under my picture with the traphouse. Colby recently posted a picture with me making serious scary faces. I smiled his face.  I looked at the comments.
Oh my god is that your girlfriend she is so beatiful. Who the fuck does this bitch think she is doing with my colby.  Wow she is hot colby.  Go fucking die whore. Her face i want to punch and shoot her.
I was shocked that colby didn't respond to any of the harsh comments.  I heard someone running down the stairs i put my hair in my face hiding the small tears.
"Hey y

what are you up to? " colby leaned across from me.  I looked at his messy black hair i wanted him to see the comments but he proboly has seen it.  I turned my phone off and put it on the counter and leaned on my hand.
"Nothing colbs... I am just thinking about life. " i say tapping the counter in a soft tone.
"You seem upset? " colby got closer to me i looked at his blue eyes. All i could hear was my heart beat.  He locked eye contact with me and i knee that is what he loves. I looked away and grabbed my keys and phone.
"I am going out see you later. " i fixed my crop top and walked out of the house not looking back. I got in my black toyota that kat bought me for a present.  I saw colby open the door i drove off fast. I could not stop this feeling of my chest exploading.  I pulled into target.  I just needed to forget about the harsh comments.  I started to look around i saw some really cute clothes.  I saw kat and sam they looked like they were handcuffed. Kat saw me and ran over to me...  Poor sam.
"Hey y

.. What are you doing here? " kat knows i don't like shopping by myself, so she knew there was something wrong.
"I see your handcuffed again... I won't bother yall. " i walk off kat tried to stop me but i kept walking. I spent 45 minutes in target.  My phone was going crazy.  I saw some more pictures until i recognized a name.
BIGDADDYTYLER- SO YOU LIVING IN A HUGE HOUSE AND FUCKING THIS GUY.. WOW YOU DON'T CHANGE DO YOU Y\N... IM COMING BITCH.
I started to breathe heavy. Colby was calling me so was corey.  I decided to go home.  I was scared to be in my car alone. I thought someone was following me.  I would stop they would, i would turn around they would to.  I hurried home and got into the gate closing it.  The car stopped, but i was waiting for someone to get out they just drove off.  I parked my car and locked it.  I walked into and saw kat and sam asleep with the movie 'a dogs purpose' the house was quiet except for corey in his room stomping,  Proboly dancing with devyn. I walked upstairs to see Colby's door was open. I walked into my room to a angry colby. He got up and closed my door.
"Y

... I am so sorry about my fans... "
"Colby.. I am tired can i please just go take a shower and go to sleep. "I interrupted him. Colby looked at the floor and rubbing his arm.
"You know your not what they are calling you right. " i walked over to my table putting my phone and keys down.
"Colby... Please. "I sat on my bed taking my eyelashes off and beanie.
"Who is this tyler" colby crossed his arms.  I suddenly remembered the hurtful moments.  I rage towards colby and pushed him out and locked my door and ran to my bed and cried into my pillow.  Colby wad banging on the door screaming my name.  I wanted colby to hold me and tell me everything is okay but i know it is just a fantasy. I don't deserve to be happy.  I deserve to be used. I got out of the shower and put on my PJs.  I laid on my bed looking at Colby's contact.
Me- hey i am sorry can you come in my room i need to tell you something. i waited for about 10 minutes until he responded.
Colby- yeah im coming.
I opened instagram and saw tyler dm me and i was panicking.  I opened it and instantly it was full of rape threats and just rude words. Colby came in with no shirt on i felt my cheeks burn up.
"Is this okay,  I just got out of bed. " colby sat on my bed not close to me.  I looked at his perfect jaw line and put my hands on my thighs slapping them.
"Okay...  Tyler is my ex... He is the reason I am here. " I started to feel sad.  Colby scooted closer showing he is interested.
"What happened if you don't mind me asking. " colby says playing with my blanket.
"I can't because you don't deserve to hear what happened to me.  I mean its not worth it it is just me waisting my breathe. " I started to cry colby pulled me into his chest. I started to cry into his chest. I haven't felt safe like this since me and b\f\f

would hug out our problems.
"Y

, you are an phenomenal woman..  You can tell me anything you want I am here for you. I am a great listener. "Colby pulled me to face me.  I looked at his lips I wanted to kiss the but I couldn't because he is too perfect for me. Colby saw me staring he smiled moving my hair out of my face.
"Your beautiful y

,  don't let anyone tell you your not. "Colby grabbed my hand.  He leaned in I smiled and leaned in. He didn't break eye contact with me.  He got close to my lips until I could fell his hot breathe on my face.
"GUYS WANNA GO OUT AND EAT! " Corey bursted through I pushed colby away.  Corey just started to punch wallas going crazy. Colby walked with corey until he looked at me and smiled.  Corey closed my door I couldn't feel my chest or my face.
"What was that feeling it was so heart warming. " I looked at my phone phone see an unknown number calling me calling answered it making sure it isn't a old friend.
Me- hello
Tlyer- I know where you are I am going to burn down the house and all of the fuck boys and those ugly slutty friends of youR thinking as friends.
I shakes at the thought of him doing that really.  I closed my door turning my phone off.  Colby saw me sipping my eyes he grabbed my arm and pulled me into the bathroom closing the door.
"Colby what are you doing? " I say before I feel his lips crash into mine. I open my eyes wide I tried to push him away but I fell into the kiss. He pulled away and looked at me.
"I am sorry I should not have kissed you.. I was just trying to show who that you are brave and unique and most of all yourself. " colby was very red.  I heard Sam and Kay talking and walking with corey to the cars. I wanted to kiss colby again but I couldn't pull him to me.  I left the bathroom walking outside. Corey was talking something.
"Y

you have to ride with colby everyone is pact is that okay? " Kay said. Colby walked to his car he saw and realized I was riding with him he opened my door side.
"Wow everyone look at colby being a gentleman. " Jake was screaming.  I got in and buckled up. Everyone was driving.  Me and colby didn't say anything only listening to music. I wanted colby to kiss my lips again he was so sweet being careful and passionate.  We pulled into chillies. I got out and walked into the restraint by do I looked at his hands I wanted to interlock our ding. I can't do this to him he doesn't need a rag doll. Colby helped me through the crows we all sat at a party table.  Sam and Kat and Jake and Tara and colby were on the left side.  It was was and corey and devyn then Arron and uncle Elton then me. I was across from colby but col didn't care I tried to focus on me forgetting about this feeling I have for him.
I am gonna leave this like this. Next chapter well you will see 😜😜😍✖💜.