My Promises to You

ugh

you know, sometimes i wonder if that's what love is

that night before i left, when i finally felt you

all of you when we last touched

and it had been something i had been waiting to feel

and i recall the night before you moved and how we stood out by your car

embraced for who knows how long

bonfire miles away and encroached in the darkness of the sky's gaze

and i remember how i held you

wanting more of you, wanting all of you in my arms and in my heart

and it felt like i was holding on to air

something hollow

why did you resonate that last night?

why could i feel your whole being?

why did your heart buzz beneath my arms

and why was it that

in the face of pain and heartbreak

i finally felt what i thought love was