I Like You When I Love You

ILY 02

ILY 02

Nakabalik na kami sa camping site nang hindi pa rin ako umiimik. Actually napapanis na yung laway ko pero wala akong pakialam. Bwisit siya. Parang wala din naman siyang pakialam sa akin kasi hindi niya rin ako kinakausap.

Corny?

Eh sa tuwing sinasabi ko nga yun sa ibang mga may crush sa akin ay kulang na lang maghugis puso yung mata nila kilig. Tapos corny?

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Dumiretso ako sa mga kaklase ko at nakita kong nagsisimula na silang bumuo ng tent nila. By pairs yung iba sa tent but since wala si Annette ay mag isa lang ako. It is actually a good thing for me...kesa naman may ka-share akong hindi ko kasundo.

For the past years that I have been studying on our university, I consider Annette as my only friend. On my first year as a freshman, I had friends.
I gained lots of them. We were really close to the point na kapag nagpapatulong sila sa paggawa ng plates, I was like Charlie Puth, cause I'm only one call away.

But then nung nagtagal, I realized na parang iba na. Parang sobra na kasi parang sakin na nila totally pinapagawa yung sa kanila. It would have been okay kung tumutulong sila but no, parang pinapaako nila sa akin yung mga plates na dapat sila ang gumagawa.

It came to the point na sinabunutan ako ng isa naming kaibigan kasi hindi ko natapos yung plate niya because I was busy doing mine. She failed to submit it on time kaya napag-initan siya ng prof namin. She put the all blame on me without considering the fact that it is her responsibility to do her plates. Imbes na tulungan ako ng iba pa naming kaibigan, tumulong pa silang ipahiya ako.

At that point, I realized that I should stop considering people who just befriended me because of their own needs. Like fuck, I'm not their yaya to attend to them and do things that they should have been doing. I don't need those friends. I know my worth as a friend and I should know those who are worth to be my friend.

But I should forget about that. I should forget about the people but never the lesson that they taught me. Wala na rin naman sila sa university kasi na-expell sila. Months after our mini catfight, may sinugod ulit sila na bago nilang kaibigan. Same scenario, may nagsumbong so ayon, expelled. Who knows kung nasaan sila? Baka nasa kanal, lumulutang. Mga plastik kasi.

Anyway, I was busy setting my tent nang biglang may tumabi sa akin at tumulong sa paga-assemble ng tent poles. I already had an idea who it is but then I still acted like I don't care. Magpapakipot muna ako.

He continued helping me until we finished setting up the tent. I was really sweaty kaya ayokong lumapit sa kanya. Nakakahiya kaya, baka amoy pawis na ako.

I stayed acting like his presence doesn't affect me at all. I was busy wiping the sweat on my neck using the back of my hand nang naramdaman kong umalis siya. Napalingon ako para tingnan siya pero nawala agad siya.

Ay, umalis.

I was kind of sad but then I shrugged my thought off. Pinaypayan ko ang sarili ko gamit ang kamay habang nagpapasok ng gamit sa tent nang biglang may kamay na nag-abot sa akin ng mineral water.

I instantly turned around but then I lost my balance because of a root of a tree. But then I felt a hand on my back to stop me from falling.

"Clumsy..." He whispered.

I was lost for a few seconds. Napahinga ako ng malalim dahil sa kaba.

"Thank you." I fixed myself before finally looking at him.

"Be careful next time." He gave me the mineral bottle that he offered me earlier and sat on the huge rock along side of my tent. He then drink on his own mineral bottle acting like nothing really happened.