ABOUT A BOY | SEBASTIAN VETTEL

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An unexpected email could bring different kinds of emotions to a person. Camilla knew the best thing was probably to ignore it for now, because there wasn't much she could do. But even though she tried to tell herself to just delete it. She couldn't. Instead, Camilla kept re-reading the email over and over again. She lost track of time, lost track of how many times she had read it and forgot to breathe normally a few times in the process. Her heartbeat only sounded louder and louder in her ears. She made herself go crazy with all these scenarios of what this person could do. Why did she always think of the worst-case scenario? She probably had that from her mother. What was she supposed to do now? Pretend like she never saw the email and call it a bluff? Just a stupid prank from someone that didn't want to harm her in any other way than just scare her a little bit? But what if it wasn't a bluff? What if this person was dangerous? What if she puts Jonas in danger just because she was ignoring the mail she got? Maybe it was best to leave and go home. But what would she tell Kimi? What would she tell her three-year-old son? Camilla stood up from her chair and walked over to the bed where Jonas was still sleeping. He had his thumb in his mouth and was clinging against his little stuffed elephant. He looked so care free. Camilla couldn't stop herself from starting to cry softly and sat down on the ground. She had so much on her head that this was getting too much. Camilla really felt like leaving Spain was the best and safest option. The only thing was that Kimi would be very angry and probably blamed it on her workaholic character. She put her hand over her mouth as she started to sob. She couldn't do this in front of Jonas. She couldn't show Jonas that she was scared. Camilla removed herself from the floor and stepped into bed. She closed her eyes and hoped this would make her fall asleep. It didn't for a long time, but when she did she fell asleep with red puffy eyes. But sleeping with red puffy eyes, meant she woke up with red puffy eyes. 

She slept for two hours before someone knocked on the door. Camilla's immediate reaction was getting scared, thinking back about the mail. Camilla looked up as the person knocked again. She now realized that Jonas was awake and was standing up to get to the door. Camilla didn't know how fast she had to get up from the bed and yell to her son to not open the door. She felt her heartbeat going faster and faster, it got scary at one point as it also started to hurt. Camilla never had a heart attack, but she could imagine this feeling like a heart attack, even if it wasn't true. Camilla's sight went blurry as she yelled again to her son to not open the door while she stumbled over the suitcase. 

"Jonas?" Camilla could hear a man's voice as she stood up again. She couldn't recognize the voice as her heartbeat was so hard that it was the only thing that filled her ears. She walked as fast as she could towards the little hallway. "Where is your mommy? Oh. Camilla, are you alright?"Camilla was now in full panic attack as she somehow couldn't register the voice. She also was still looking blurry through her eyes and she was now thinking that it wouldn't take too long now until she was gonna be unconscious.
"Hey, hey. Calm down, it's me. It's Seb. You're okay." Camilla felt two strong arms around her, but they weren't suffocating her. His hand was moving softly up and down on her back and it actually slowly started to calm her down. "Breath in... and now slowly breath out. Yeah, that's good. Now again, breathe in... and breathe slowly out." Camilla followed Sebastian steps a few times before her whole body started to calm down. Sebastian leads Camilla slowly towards the bed and let her sit down on it. Sebastian sat down beside her and Jonas had stood there too, but with a lot of confusion in his eyes. Sebastian had still one hand behind her back that was making slow movement up and down, while with the other hand he gestured for Jonas to come to him. Jonas walked carefully towards him as he holds his stuffed animal tightly in his arms. Sebastian let him sit on his lap.

"What's going on mommy?" Camilla could hear Jonas ask softly. It made Camilla feel guilty and she wanted to cry again. He was never supposed to see her like that.
"Mommy had... Mommy had a nightmare." Sebastian told Camilla's son.
"Oh," Jonas said back. "Like a bad dream?"
"Yes, like a bad dream. And it made her a little upset." Jonas nodded and Sebastian watched as the three-year-old slid off his lap to walk in between his mother's legs. He moved his stuffed animal in front of her.
"Mommy want a hug from Ollie?" Jonas asked. Camilla gave her son a teary smile, but instead of only giving the stuffed animal a hug, she curled her arms around her son and hold him tightly against her. Sebastian could see the tears falling off her cheeks, but decided not to interrupt the family moment. Camilla slowly let go of Jonas and Sebastian thought in his head that it maybe was best for Jonas to leave this room for a little bit.