Alleys.

Suffering

Waking up to the smell of burnt pancakes was a bit new to me, I ran downstairs to turn off the stove then wiped my eyes clean from my previous sleep. I looked left to right before I hear the footsteps creep down the steps, it was Chresanto with no shirt on and a pants. 'Snap out of it!' I think to myself before I see him open his mouth, "Sorry about that, she told me to watch the pancakes but then I fell asleep.", he says before letting out a chuckle and I shook my head then smiled at that. "I'll make some more if you'd like...", "Really?", "Yeah, I'll call you if you plan to go back to sleep", I say before dumping the burnt pancakes out. "Thanks", he says and then I started searching for pancake batter but I still felt his eyes on me, I turned around to see his eyes were brought up so, it meant they were looking down at something. I shook my head as he apologized before leaving to go back upstairs and at the time I forgot to ask where Trudy was because the house was quite and I'd look everywhere for her but she wasn't there. The pancakes were finished, "Chres!", I yelled then he'd run down stairs as if it was a call for help, "Breakfast's ready....", I say then he slowly nodded before grabbing a plate, "Where's your mother?", "She went out for groceries and I thought she'd be back by now but I have no idea- I'll text her to see if she's okay", he says and he pulled out his phone after he took a bite out of his pancakes. I sat next to him and took a bite out of mine, 'Damn, I am the best cook!' was the first thing I thought.

"She's heading back now, she had a few problems", he says with a small look of confusion but then he shook it off, "Wow, I'm late for school", he says after with his eyes hooked on his screen phone. "Oh, yeah... school. I miss school", I say shocking myself even, "Yes, it was crap but I miss my usual routines", I say before taking another bite at the pancakes that had syrup all over it. "Can I come along with you?", "As cool that would be, it is impossible to be possible", he says laughing a bit, "I know", I say honestly with the image of my old school running through my mind like an old memory. "I miss my friends and everything- pssh, I miss Firecracker.... where is he?", I ask before rushing outside but I only saw 'Princess' the female dog and I was kind of disappointed. "Wait- where is he...", I ask as he tried to speak through my words of panic and he grabbed my shoulders and stared at me straight in the eye, "I'm sorry, I didn't want to tell you this now but- I- um, ....Blue's dead". Those words echoed through my mind for a while before I'd actually understand them, it was so hard for me to believe, "H-h-h-h-how", I stuttered badly then he sighed deeply, "He died a month ago, I went to check on him because she was scratching on the door looking panicked... he wasn't moving or breathing."

He told me that he wasn't really sure of it being a natural death, his mother would convince him of that but somewhere deep down he'd think of him dying in complete struggle. There were no bruises at all but his eyes were open in shock, a while after they'd shut close completely. His mother was convinced of Blue having a heart attack but it didn't make sense to him- neither to me... he found him there as if he was disrupted in his own natural environment and he died in shock, he thought that he'd been poisoned and it clicked in his mind easily, with no trouble. He thought he'd been poisoned by him, the big man with many other men, Scar. "I know it in my gut, he suffered before his cruel death", he says with his head in his hands and I never really cried as much for some reason, that's when I knew that something had changed inside me, I was left with no feeling- at least not as much as I thought I'd carry. I was honestly too sad to even shed a tear but I felt the feeling of not being able to fit in the time now, everything was happening fast but yes, maybe at times they'd be where this day was a little slow but no, that was only for a split second. It's 2 pm and I'm still not seeing Trudy, I'll call her each time but she'd state that she's off with some friends and such until four o' clock came. Chresanto was doing his homework and I'd try to help him because he sucks at Mathematics, the door opened revealing Trudy probably with the same clothes on from his morning, it was a bit strange, "Where were you...", "I got stuck in traffic and whole bunch of stuff happened on the high way so, we'd have to take different routes, so much that we'd end up getting lost. Val dropped me off", she says before taking off her shoes then laid back on the couch looking tired as ever, "Oh, okay- do you want dinner...", "I'm fine, dear", she says before a long period of silence entered the whole house, we decided to head upstairs.

It was a rather casual situation but something had me a bit iffy about the whole thing, especially when she'd reach back at this time. "So... I guess I'll head off in my bedroom", "Okay, I'll just play video games", he says grabbing my full attention, "Video-games", I asked shyly interested. "Yeah, I'm gonna play Assasin's Creed", he says then I sit closer to him as he pulled out his controller, he laughed softly, "Do you like video games?", "Yes but I suck at them...", I say then he nodded slowly, "I'll teach you if you want", he suggested before playing giving me a tutorial trip but then he let me play the next half of the first part of the game and I happily left him with his mouth open then he poked me at the side, "You lied to me", he says before I rolled my eyes playfully. Somehow, it led to a tickle fight and most of the time I'd be the one tickling him, he was such a mess- a hot mess. 'Seriously, stop it', I think to myself again and that was the first time we'd actually 'get along' and be happy for once, I'd end up falling asleep on him and surprisingly, he didn't knock me the fudge out because I accidentally drooled on him... but it still ached me. I can't help but think or wonder what I've missed and everything that went wrong, what if I needed to be there in a certain time and I wasn't. Blue died... could I have stopped it, the attempts of scaring the rest of the family with all their strong bonds failing- could I have prevented that? Everything that happened, I'm starting to feel like this whole thing is my fault somehow. Since I've stepped in this house, everything erupted and it's soon going to explode... maybe I should leave ,or am I over-thinking or criticizing myself too much?

Maybe I should leave so, everything would be easier to sort out with their families and sad tragedies. Maybe it is none of my business, I shouldn't have gathered this much information because it has led me and them to a mess.

I should have ran faster, I should've excepted her as who she is as my mother... I should leave, I'll leave and very soon before I walk into a bad situation again and make things worse than it already was.

I should leave.

Author - Should Brianna leave or stay?

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, take notice that this book will SOON come to an END. In the next chapter, I don't know... you tell me. Make sure and leave a comment below if you'd like or give this chap a star if you liked- even though it has horrible errors that may eat me alive.