Why? (a zayn malik fanfic)

Chapter 28

Zayn's p.o.v

We are in California now, and Niall wants to see sky so he went and got her, when she came in I barely seen her because all the boys were hugging her, when they moved a bit I seen her she was still beautiful but she got much skinnier and she had red eyes. I hope she is okay and nothing happened while I was away.

We said our greetings and Niall whispered something to Louis then He hugged sky tight,i wonder what was that about. I asked them what happened then they said nothing so I shrugged it off, but I want to know, really bad. Why wouldn't they tell me? Maybe it has something to do with me.

I was talking to perrie , and every once in a while I look at sky, and see how beautiful she is and sometimes when I look at her she catches me then smiles and blushes, she is beautiful and I want her to be mine, I still love this girl, everyday I think about her and I don't know why she said no when i proposed, i know that I made a big mistake by proposing to perrie,it was only for the (media),i didn't think she will say yes but I'm gonna break up with perrie I don't love her as much as I love sky and I can't marry perrie if I'm still in love with sky, I have to ask sky why she said no, but now isn't a good time. maybe tomorrow
When I talk to her I don't feel shy or embarrassed for what I say,

Sky's p.o.v

It is about 7 o'clock and I'm tired. I've been with the boys for 3 hours,i wanna go home.

"I better go I'm tired" I said.

"No don't go it's early" harry said.

"Bye harry" I said. then Niall stood up.

"Don't do anything stupid okay" he said hugging me.

"I can't promise you that" I said, he frowned.

"Do say that, I love you okay,if you need anything I'm always here" he said I half smiled then said bye and left.

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I was taking a shower and I look at my razors, I can hear them calling my name, I take one and slide it across my wrist.

Cut you are worthless

Cut nobody is going to love you

Cut you are a nobody

Cut you are ugly

Cut you are not perfect.

Cut you have no reason to be here

I clean the stuff up and change then cry myself to sleep like everyday. And that is going to stop one day when I'm not alive anymore.