Why? (a zayn malik fanfic)

Chapter 10

Zayn's p.o.v
I was sleeping and dreaming about sky when I felt someone on me, I opened my eyes and found sky on top of me. I kinda liked it.
"What are you doing" I asked confused.
"I was trying to get off but I accidentally fell on top of you. I'm so sorry" she said while trying to get off but I pulled her back on top of me.
"It kinda feels good" did I really just say that. I started leaning in because I really wanted to kiss her but we heard Louis moving so she jumped off of me and ran to the bathroom. did she want to kiss me or she didn't want to?
it's all Louis fault. when she went to the bathroom I see Louis still sleeping I get up and punch the door for how much I was mad. I just missed the best moment to kiss her and today is her date with Niall. Fuck.
Sky's p.o.v
After I jumped off of zayn I went to take a shower because I smell like men from zayn and Louis.
I started taking a shower then I see a razor I suddenly I have a feeling to cut so I get the razor and slide it over my left wrist ,then another, then another. then I just cleaned my wrists then just started crying in the shower.after about 5 minutes of crying I got out the shower.
"Fuck" I whisper quietly. I forgot to bring clothes. I open the door a little to see if there was anyone and thank god, there wasn't anyone. I got out quickly and went to pick casual clothes because I've got like 7 hours till the date on 6.
While I was picking clothes to wear I heard someone call my name and come in the room. I turn around and found zayn. wow the boy I like is standing at the door seeing me almost naked.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry I didn't know I just came in to see if you want breakfast, I should shut up. um bye breakfast is in the kitchen if you want. Um okay bye" he said nervously I started laughing a little. he is so cute.
After I changed I went downstairs and found all the boys playing fifa.
"Mornin" I say while walking to the kitchen.
"Hey" they all say then I realize Niall wasn't there. I go to the kitchen then find him eating.
"Hi" he says while his mouth is stuffed.
"Hey, why aren't you playing with the boys" I ask.
"I got hungry" he says while taking another bite.
"The boys weren't wrong when they said you're always hungry" I said.
"Are you excited for our date tonight" he said. I'm really not excited. I like Niall but as a friend not a boyfriend.
"Not really. I never really went on a date before so I really don't know what we are supposed to do" Niall started laughing.
"You really never went on a date before" Niall asked confused.
"Nope" I said popping the p.
"We'll I'm glad to be your first." he says. I walk out the kitchen I'm not really hungry. I just want to go walk on the beach to think a little. I was wearing black skinnies with a t-shirt I went upstairs grabbed a maroon beanie and a coat and wear them. I the go downstairs.
"I'm going to the beach. bye." I walk out the door and I heard the door open again I turn around and see zayn.
"Can I go with you?" he asks.
"Sure" I say while turning back around a start walking. He then catches up.
"Why are we going to the beach?"
"I like going when I'm bored or if I want to just think" I say.
"Cool." He says. we walk for like 10 minutes until zayn speaks up.
"Are you excited for your date" he asks.
"No"
"Why"
"I'm not into him"
"Then why did you say yes"
"I couldn't say no that will be mean, but if he tries to make a move I'll just tell him I'm not into him"
"Okay" after a few seconds. "Do you got any hidden talents" zayn says.
"Yeah I know how to do this" I did a trick with my tongue. Zayn stopped.
"That was so fucking cool"
"I'll teach you in the future"
"tell me something no one else knows." he says.
"Well only if you tell me one first"
"Ok once I was about to get out the group but I still stayed. your turn"
"Well only if you don't laugh or tell anyone else"
"Okay"
"I'm still a virgin" I say. he stopped then I turned to look at him.
"Really a girl like you will have all boys on their knees for you"
"Well I don't know anybody so there are no boys"
after 10 minutes we went back home. it was good to walk with someone especially zayn.