To Love or To Hate

Chapter 3

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Tahir's POV

"I have served your food" fatimah said, smiling sheepishly.

She looked so amazing in the beautiful brown and gold wrapper she tied around her body.  She swayed her waist in front of me and walked away shyly. "Thank you. . .I would eat soon" I said to her back. I caught myself smiling.

Today was supposed to be my wedding day with summayah. I didn't plan to leave summy. At least not like that. I just had to, i had no choice. 

I can't watch her break in front of me if i had told her physically. I can't stand her tears or even the thoughts of it. She had the softest heart and she doesn't deserve me.

I shook my head and raised my chin, i saw my mother looking at me from the corridor. I hold on to her gaze and looked away when she walkes towards me.

"Tahir. . . you need to act like a man and stop all this"

"Its nothing mum" i sighed. "Its normal for me to feel this way. . . i would get over it soon"

"I am just worried for you my son. . . i know you were not fully ready to marry fatimah, but just look at fatimah, she loves you. Gaskia (okay)"

I nod my head in agreement. "ok"

But my mum was not done so she continued. "See how she loves and adores you. . . no woman can respect or love you like that wallahi (by God)"

I held her arm tight so she would stop talking. She moved close to me and rubbed my elbows.

"And you have to forget summayah. Allah will do the best for her"

"I have forgotten her"

"Dont lie to me tahir. . . i know you more than anyone else, i know you are deeply in love with summayah but we both know its the best for her"

"Stop reminding me mum"

"Its because you have to brace yourself . . . don't make it so obvious that you would make fatimah insecure and feeling unloved." She stood up. "I have done my part well" she concluded, leaving me alone to my thoughts.

Mum was right, i had to forget summy and move on with fatimah. Fatimah is a very cultured and beautiful lady. she has done everything in her possible best to please me since we got married.

Fatimah walked out of the kitchen and went straight to the dining table. "Mai gida (my husband), you haven't touched your food?" She wore a sad frown.

"Don't worry, I am coming to eat now. I was having a discussion with mum earlier"

She shook her head "Ok, i will sit here until you are ready to eat" she dragged a chair out and sat down.

I lost my appetite earlier especially when i got notifications on my mobile phone that summy had set. but i cant keep doing this to fatimah, How I wish summy and i never happened.

After picking on my food, i managed to eat a little and though fateemah didn't look pleased but she didnt complain either.

We both went inside our bedroom to sleep. Fatimah slept off after she showered. I looked at her sleeping self and raised the duvet to cover her properly. She's prone to cold but i can't do without the air conditioner. I have told her numerous times to lets have seperate rooms but she wouldn't even agree to it .