My Heart It Breaks

The warrior

She seems happy,

Strong and unbreakable

Fun and very love able

Well she's soulless,

Broken and can barley breathe

And the smile she puts on, there's a frown underneath

When she looked so strong and happy she broke

The pain got to her, her own world grabbed her neck and let her choke

She broke into tears

One of her most horrifying fears

Nothing but people, touching and asking if your okay when they see its not

That pain she feels everyday got her, but she wouldn't go down she fought

You could see her suffocate

And see her eyes filled with self hate

She wishes for her blades and old bad habits

But instead of coping with that she let her heart and world fall to bits

Now she's building it all again, of course it's not perfect, it's still full cold darkness and scars

But that won't stop her, it just makes her stronger and even if it's filled with darkness there's always the stars.

Ill carry on my tough path and of course ill fall

But even if I can't get up ill have my strength to let me crawl.

My pain can't take me down

I won't let myself drown

Ill wear my battle scars and move on

Because at least in the end I know my war here is done

I won't feel like a loser because ill let my own life take me,

Not myself, but once I'm gone ill be happy and free.

And I'll be able to look back and think, I didn't choose to be here it chose me and I was able to live through hell and heaven