together

Chapter 4

EDDIE POV

~trigger warning(suicidal thoughts mention self harm, depression. keep your mind safe, homophobic slurs)~

I ran to the window and carefully climbed out like I had seen Richie do a million times before although i was not quite as graceful tripping from disorientation as i got to the bottom. I started running to Richie's house, ignoring the blood dripping from my knee, Ignoring the burning in my chest. When I got there I put my inhaler in my mouth and pulled the trigger. I ran up to Richie's window and went up a ladder he had.

I saw the bathroom door closed and the light on. I opened the window jumping through. I opened the door to Richie's bathroom, he was sitting on the floor curled up sobbing, blade in his hand. I ran up to him and hugged him close, I carefully took the blade from him managing to cut my hand in the process but I would be fine all I cared about right now was Richie he cried and said

"I'm sorry Eddie, its just so hard, to find the motivation everyday to get out of bed, to eat, to drink, to shower, to do anything, I feel like a rock, I feel so numb so empty all my joking all my laughs and smiles its to mask it, so no one sees me as weak or useless, as weak and useless as I feel."

"your not useless nor are you worthless I promise Chee" I whisper into his ear, it was so sad to see him like this for him to believe that he wasn't as amaising as I and everyone else thought he was I sigh and hug him closer looking down slightly.

"When did you start this" I say noticing the cuts and scars on his arms

"I don't really know...a long while ago it seems like forever, when things with the parents started to head south" he said, and started to cry again

"Hey its ok" I hugged him close again, his tall lanky frame much larger than mine "I'm going to get you out of hear" I say

I ran back into his room grabbing some clothes and packing it into a bag. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and pounding on Richie's door. It was his dad,I ran back over to Rich and helped him stand up, I grabbed the bag I packed for him and we climbed out the window. Just as his dad burst into the room. We then ran all the way back to my house. When we got there we climbed through the window.

"Rich..." I said,

"Yeah," he replied, in a quiet timid voice very unlike what I'm used to from him but it's nice to see this side of him to see him, not a side he lets anyone see, in that moment I felt very special. I looked up to his jewel like eyes and saw him staring back down at me, we just sat there for a while so close yet needing to be closer if that was even possiable.

"I'm sorry" I finally mumbled out

"I know," he said. I rested my head on his chest exhausted from the day Adrenalin wearing off.

I mumbled, "I love you." He didn't hear it, I hope. He played with my hair as we both drifted off to sleep.

Next Morning

RICHIE POV

"Eddie, you awake?" I yawned really loudly, and tickled the small boy who was just moments before engulfed in my arms.

"Now I am." He said in his grumpy morning voice, I chuckled and gave me a small smile at my cute cute boy. "Eddie...",

"Yeah Rich?" It looked like he was thinking about what he was going to say.

"What's going to happen now?" I ask, knowing his mum would never let a worthless trash mouth like me stay with her little Eddie bear

"I don't Richie, maybe you can stay here?"he says taking me by surprise at the suggestion

"But what about your mom, what if she finds out?" I held his face with my hands,

"We'll deal with it," he booped my nose, but I flinched, i looked back down to his face which was slightly saddened at the fact I thought he would hurt me, but I know he never would that's not it i don't know why I filched  "we always do. Now come on, we have to get ready for school." I smiled and changed in the bathroom to some of the clothes that Ed's  chucked in a bad last night.

"Should I...we tell the other losers?" I asked

"They're our closest friends and will know what to do... right?" Ed's said

"Right" I replied, but i wasn't quite sure, what if they don't like me anymore and then Eddie leaves too because he wants to be with them and then I'll be all alone and have to go back and-

"Earth to Richie, Come in, DO YOU READ ME!" I hear in the back of my mind and then process that Ed's was talking to me, and I slowly came back out of my thoughts

We didn't have to sneak out of the house, because Sonia was still in her room asleep

"damn your mum must be exhausted from all our fun last night" i blurted out but instead of beep beeping me or telling me how annoying i was Ed's just looked up at me and started laughing uncontrollably, he fell to the ground in a fit of laughter and i had to scoop him up bridal style and get him out of the house before he woke up his mum.

We got to school and waited for the other losers out the front,

"H-hey guys," Bill walked up to us first of the other 5 losers to arive,

"what h-happened to y-you trash mouth?" me said with pep,

SEE THEY HATE YOU, THEY THINK YOUR ANNOYING, YOU SHOULD JUST GIVE UP, MUM WAS RIGHT YOU ARE JUST A STUPID FAGGOT

"I'll tell you once everyone is here," I said realizing my smile had faultered, and gave bill a nudge in the arm

"O-okay Rich." Finally everyone arrived (accept Stan who was probably already waiting outside his classroom) but the bell rang just as Richie was about to start, so it had to wait until lunch...

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Hi guys so as expected after coming out of an abusive household our beloved Rich is going to be suffering from PTSD maybe some depression and anxiety

All topics i talk about in this book are things I am diagnosed with so I am writing it as it is for me with these things, but it may vary for you it doesn't make you conditions, disorders or traumas any less valid

im always up to support you through a rough time all it takes is a hey

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(also low key self promo do it as much as you want just not on others story's when they have said other wise)