My Poems

#5

Hi 💕
I haven't updated this in a long long time. It's been 2 years actually, ha. Oops.
Well, I want to try and get back into this to give me something to do and enjoy during this quarantine :)
I actually have a name for this poem.
"The Friend I Never Asked For"
Hope you enjoy :)♡

He was the friend I never asked for.
Appeared one day, right out of the blue.
Walked right through my mind's doors.
And I was left confused and without a clue.

All that can describe him is one single word: dark.
He never lets in one single light of day.
He's always determined to leave on me his gloomy mark.
He seems to glean every ounce of my happiness away.

Some days, his voice is nothing but a mere whisper, almost pure silence .
Making me think he has decided to let me be.
Other days, his glass shattering voice becomes violent.
Ultimately throwing my emotions into complete havoc; making a total disaster out of me.

He weaves tsunami like thoughts into my brain that snuff out my small flickering flame of joy.
Those thoughts then turn into killer boa constricters; slithering their way from my mind, into my chest, and constricting theirselves around my lungs, making living pure hell.
He puts me in string-like chains, paints me the way he wants me to be, and plays with me like I'm a lifeless puppet or his own personal toy.
Then, when he grows tired of playing with me, he tosses me back into my own swirled up head that he's now made my cell.

He really likes to play games, but ones that I'm not too fond of.
Like where he viciously screams vile things at me until I break.
He also favors the game where he smothers me in guilt and tells me that I'm not loved.
Everytime I'm forced to play that one, I end up staring at the ceiling in despair until the wee hours of morning creep through my blinds, still wide awake.

He is the only one friend I never asked for.
The never ending torturous company I didn't want.
But I don't have the strength or will to get rid of him anymore.
He's got an everlong hold on me and I realize that I will forever be the one that he haunts.

Thank you for reading! Hopefully, I can get back into this because I haven't been writing much poetry lately and I miss it so yeah. :)
Until next time my babies.

Love ~B.C.~