Will you have me? Ben x Devi fanfic

Devi's POV>

It was in that moment exactly I think I fell in love with him. Crazy thing about love is that you never realise when specifically you fall in love with them. It happens when years later you're having one of your weird conversations with them, and you think back to the very first time you looked at them like they were the only person in the world. It feels weird knowing once you had looked at them in a different light, but after falling in love, it's impossible to go back once you've tasted them. I've learnt that by now.

I walked over to the car with the sand between my toes and got inside where he was. As I closed the door I winced at the loud noice, I didn't want to wake him up. After all, he looked absolutely adorable drooling on his expensive navy shirt. He jumped despite my efforts not to wake him, his blue eyes widening as he realised he fell asleep. I felt myself go soft, he was angelic.

"Hi. Was I drooling?" He said, with his cute cheeks going slightly pink. I just lightly chuckled, I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs how tempted I was to kiss him. "Sorry" he apologised once again. "uh how'd it go? Did you make it down there in time?" He asked me. I was taken back. I'd never have anyone care for me like that... I was slightly conflicted if I'm honest. How the hell do I react to this? Why would he even be interested in me, I'm just the girl who's Dad died and who got paralysed from stress. Great. But looking at his relaxed face and bed head, I felt all my worries wash away, it's like my mind was blank. "Yeah" I replied, my mind buzzing with thoughts. I'd never felt this was before, I felt overwhelmed with the realisation I was in love. I love with a guy who supposedly hates me, he'd never want someone like me. He sighed with relief. I couldn't believe he cared. I found myself slipping further into love by the second, his ocean eyes holding an innocence and love I hadn't seen before. I wanted to bathe myself in it. I realised I was staring into those eyes, and before I knew it, I voiced the words "you stayed." A sort of incredulous tone taking my voice. He looked confused, "yeah. I just wanted to make sure you were okay." At that moment I looked at him, and it was all I ever wanted. Not Paxton, not anybody. Just him.

A thousand thoughts ran through my mind, but my heart tugged at me, yelling at me to kiss him. To taste him. So I did.

I rested my hand on his neck and my other at his back, feeling his surprisingly toned muscles. It felt so good to touch him. To be able to hold him. He kissed back his soft lips feeling like heaven. Sparks were flying, I didn't want to stop. I couldn't feel anything and my body was numb to anything else but him. It's felt his hand rest on my shoulder and the hairs on my neck stand up. I was so sensitive to his touch. I craved him, in a way I had never craved Paxton before. I pulled away to look at him, and those oxen blue eyes were waiting for me. Feeling reassured this wasn't a dream, I looked at him. Like he read my mind he kissed me this time. His lips felt more passionate this time, I couldn't get enough of him.
And just like that, he had put me under his spell without even knowing it.

We stayed in that car for gods knows how long. we never pulled away. Kissing him... it was like fuel. 'How did I live without this before?' I wondered. We sat in our warm seats, a coat of thin sweat on our skin. We breathed heavily, turning to look at each other at the same time, our eyes hearing each other better than ears. We grinned, I put my hand on his lap, he brought it to his lips and kissed it, smiling like a dork. I punched his arm smiling. He instead frowned, and I realised. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to that was so hard. I didn't think-" "it's okay. I forgive you." Something small changed in me, I never wanted to hurt him again. I felt so small, this was true remorse. Having seen the look on my face as I looked out the window, I felt his strong arms come up behind me. He kissed my neck, my butterflies kicking in like a reflex, I don't quite know how he made me feel like this, but I know that I loved. I loved how me made me feel like the only girl in the world with his actions. "It's okay" he whispered, hesitating. "I know sometimes you do things and then regret them. I get you." My heart definitely stopped at that moment. It was like my whole life nobody understood me properly. They all thought I was just selfish when I cared about them so, so much. But he understood. Someone finally understood, and it happened to be the guy I had just fell in love with. I felt my body loosen up, my heart was hammering against my chest. I faced him. I looked at him for a while. Taking him in. The little crease on his forehead. The strawberry red colour of his lips. His beautiful eyes. And then I placed my hands on his shoulders and kissed his forehead. I placed my chin on his soft brown hair so that his head was on my chest and he was hugging me. "Thank you." I softly said. I felt him nod into my stomach, I chuckled.

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*Time skip of the ride home*

We got to my house and I sighed, my hand was still held by his larger palms, who occasionally brought mine to his lips. That made me smile. "We're here D" I found myself instantly smiling at the nickname as my heart skipped a beat. "Yay." I said sarcastically. He chuckled "Now come onn don't have that attitude. At least you get to have a family dinner to look forward to. I have to come home to an empty home..." he trailed off. I felt anger for his parents, how dare they just let him stay on his own? Who even does that? "Ugh!" I grunted in anger. I felt him squeeze my hand. "What's wrong?" He said in his usual voice. Instantly, my nerves calmed. Like water on a hot summers day, he soothes me. "Nothing. Hey look, why don't you have dinner with my family? They love you." I told him. Which was true, but that was only part of it. I invited him not just because they loved him around, but because I loved him around. I loved having him over. And I know what you're thinking but no IT DOESN'T MEAN I LOVE HIM. I just love him company. That's all. Yeah. Also considering I moved in with him, I should probably pay him back. Ugh I hate this. I wish we could've stayed out on the beach with the sun setting as he touched me. As he held me not just with his touch but emotionally he captivated me in a way that completely pushed out every worry and problem I have. I could get drunk on his company.
"Really?" He said in the most precious way. I felt swayed, oh he really is a treasure. "Because you don't have to. I mean I can just go home and-" "NO!" I blurted out. I felt my mind scolding myself in embarrassment inside my head. "I mean- no. Please, come with us. We want you here."

I knew he hated pity, I knew why he never wanted to accept things from me. I wished I could change that. He'd be so much happier. That's all I want for him. Happiness. I think that's why he puts up a hard front. He thinks if I know how lonely he is, how sad he is, I would pity him. But I already know, it's only made me feel more comfortable around him. Knowing he's like me, and he's not the cocky rich kid I'd known the past couple of years makes me feel amazing. He thinks I pity him, but I would never. I only sympathise with him. If only he would see that though his own doubts... "Okay then, Vishwakumar" he said in his usual teasing tone, cutting through my thoughts. He always has a way of doing that, I would drop anything to help him. I felt myself smile at that and my insides faltered. I would've hated that nickname a couple days ago. But that kiss changed everything. How did I not see those years of teasing as a charming? How did I not see him as charming? He really was... those eyes. Beautiful.
"Devi? Deviii?" I heard him say. "Yes?" I said, my mind blank. "Are we gonna go in or not?" He asked, a cute smile on his face. "Yeah, yeah let's go." I said.

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HI GUYS! This is my first chapter, I will update very fast if someone tells me they like this lmao, I need the motivation😂 This is a bit of a weird ship, but I really enjoy bevi, and I didn't see many stories on Wattpad when I was looking for good ones! Please vote for this story if u like it, it's only a button to click and then at least I know someone's reading this😭