Mutual Friends

CHAPTER 64

Blaire-

My talk with Jacob went a lot better than I thought it would. It's still weird to actually talk to him since he cheated on me, but there's no sense in making the future miserable. Even though he broke my heart, I have to learn to forgive him. 

Part of me still has hope that things might return to normal between us, because what we had was so amazing, something I have never had before. But right now I can't think of a future for Jacob and I, it's about time for me to focus on my career and my future, for myself and myself only. 

I've not only gotten a second chance at a relationship with my mother and my sister, but I'm about to start filming my first movie ever, which brings me back to telling Timmy I can't be with him either.

For some reason I'm more scared to tell Timmy than I was telling Jacob. Maybe because our relationship is so new and Timmy helped me get out of my rut I was in after I cut Jacob off. But, it was something that had to be done. 

But then again it could wait a few days, there's no rush. I can go home and relax and not stress myself out over something that isn't that serious.

I finally arrived back to my house after talking to Jacob and I quickly ran inside and ran to my room. I crashed on my bed and put on a movie, craving some down time. There was suddenly a knock from downstairs, and I quickly sat up.

I ran down to my front door and opened it, Timmy was standing in front of me with a bouquet of roses and a giant smile on his face. My stomach dropped and I suddenly felt horrible.

"Well are you going to let me in babe, or just stand there and stare?" He smiled at me and laughed.

"Oh shit I'm sorry Timmy, I'm just very surprised to see you here." 

"I know I should've called, that whole thing with me saying I was falling for you and Jacob kissing you was such a mess. But I thought I would surprise you just for fun." 

I softly smiled and ushered for him to come in, taking the flowers and heading to the kitchen. As I looked for a vase, Timmy continued to talk.

"Look Blaire, I wanted to apologize for springing that on you so quickly. It was in the heat of the moment and it wasn't right for me to say that after we've known each other for such a short time." Timmy sat down at the counter and looked at me. 

I placed the vase I found on the counter and put the flowers in it, trying to think of something to say.

"If I'm being honest, it scared the shit out of me." I came and stood by Timmy's side. "We had agreed we weren't anything serious, and then the baby situation came up and I wasn't really prepared to hear that." I frowned at him.

"I know and I'm sorry for that. And I don't want to sound like a dick or like I was just saying it to make you stay, but I don't think what we have is love. I do have feelings for you, but we haven't known each other long enough for it to be love." He looked at me expectantly.

I took a giant breath of relief, "You don't know how good it feels to hear that."

"Wait what?" Timmy looked at me worriedly.

"Oh no I don't mean that in a horrible way, I just meant I was scared that you'd be upset if I didn't love you back. I don't think we're in the right space to love someone right now, I'm dealing with Jacob coming back into my life, and you might be a dad." I placed my hand on his arm. "But that doesn't mean I don't care for you and want to be here for you whenever you need me." 

"Are you and Jacob getting back together?" He frowned at me.

"No, I actually just got back from talking with him. I let him know that him and I are strictly friends, and that I can't take trying to mend a romantic relationship with him right now." 

"You want to film this movie and not have any issues right, that's why you're setting these boundaries?" He softly smiled at me.

"Okay yes I'm glad you understand where I'm coming from." I laughed softly but then got quiet. "But Timmy, that does mean that you and I can't be in a romantic relationship either." I bit my nails expectantly.

"It's okay Blaire, I knew at some point this was going to happen." He softly stroked my cheek. "But I do agree, I want your first movie to be an experience that you remember, and not because the three of us are fighting, but because we are all getting along." He leaned in and kissed my forehead.

"So you aren't angry?" I frowned at him.

"I don't have a reason to be angry Blaire, we aren't committed to each other like that. And I mean I still get to kiss you in this movie so I'm not complaining." Timmy smirked at me and laughed. "But I want you to know that I still care for you and want to see you." 

"I can't complain either, you've made me happy again, and I can't take something like that for granted. So of course I will still care for you, and we'll hang out, and I'll be there for you with the whole Lily situation." I smiled at Timmy.

"Can I kiss you one last time outside of filming?" He smiled at me and looked me in my eyes.

I nodded and leaned forward, our lips meeting in a soft and gentle kiss.