Emotionally Unstable//Loki

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

My alarm went off at 6:30 am and I hop out of bed with a struggle being extremely tired. I change into a bikini and tie my hair into a Dutch braid grabbing a towel and putting on my thongs (flip flops) and head out to the pool. I swim for about an hour and head back to my room having a shower and dressing into a pair of skinny jeans and a daisy crop top with a cropped leather jacket and a pair of converse placing my hair into a high pony tail and placing minimal makeup onto my face (mascara and a small amount of foundation). I grabbed my shoulder bag and placed in my books and headed out the door and go through to exit the S.H.I.E.L.D base but was stopped by Nick Fury.

“Where do you think you’re going?” He asks.

“To University I have classes today.”

“I’m sorry but College is going to have to wait while we’re in the midst of this mission.”

“University cannot wait I’m in the midst of my medical degree, I have papers due you can’t just tell me when to stop and when to start Uni this is my life it’s going to be my career I can’t put that on pause.”

“Yes it can you need to stay here so you can cover your shifts of watching Loki.”

“Get someone else to cover my shifts and I’ll cover their shift when I don’t have a class, this is important to me I need to go today this is going to be my career I’m going to be a doctor and I’m going to save lives.”

“You’re a S.H.I.E.L.D agent Katrina Lovett, Crimson Scar and I’m ordering you to stay here as your legal guardian.”

“I’m 25 years old I don’t have to do what you tell me as my legal guardian and did you think maybe I don’t want this life that I don’t want to be an agent that maybe I want to save people’s lives without the violence without fighting? Maybe I want to discover the cure for cancer, help kids with disorders by giving them a cure did you ever think about that before bringing me up in this unwanted environment? Besides you’re never around unless you’re putting me on assignment!” I yell at him letting every thought I’ve always wanted to say to him slip out in one enormous blob of words and as soon as I spoke my last word I immediately regretted saying all of it.

“Nick I, it’s not that I don’t appreciate all you’ve done for me I mean you’re practically my dad but I don’t know if I want the life you are giving me.” I say quietly.

“Kat as much as you don’t want to believe it you have a gift and I know you don’t think you can control it and you believe you’ll do more harm than good but I believe in you and I know you can use it to help others because I know that’s all you’ve ever wanted to do.” Tears were brimming and I was biting my lip so I don’t make any sobbing noises.

“I’ve killed people Fury.” I say choking on my own words.

“All because I’m an emotional wreck you’ve tried to help me by giving me counselling and having Bruce help me, but I don’t want to hurt people again so if I just ignore that side of me altogether then maybe it can disappear and I won’t hurt anyone anymore.” The tears drip down my cheeks and I wipe them with my shaking hand, Fury grabs me in an embrace

I pull away from the hug. “Please just let me go to my classes.”

“Okay you can go but promise me you won’t give up on your abilities please?”

“I promise.”

**

I was dropped off at Tony Stark’s make do lab and I was confused as it wasn’t his shift it was Katrina’s.