Roc holds my chin and forces me to look at him, "That is not true. I never asked you out because.. I thought I wasn't good enough for you.. And it always made me mad how you always went after the thug types and never look at a real thing. I loved you ever since freshman year, Jahnique. I just never thought you felt the same.."
I blink, making the tears fall over. Roc always loved me? I take the hand that rests on my chin and squeeze it, "Roc.. I know you probably won't believe me.. But I am a complete virgin. I know rumors go around about how I sleep with all of my boyfriends, but it's not true. Whenever they tried to get into my pants, I always pushed them away." Roc chuckles, "I had a feeling. I know you probably look like the type, but I know you'll fuck a nigga up if they dare try any of that business."
I laugh. Oh how much I love my best friend. I look at the time and gasp. It's 12 o clock. I look and see my Step Dad parking his car into the garage. Shit.. "I have to go. This is another thing. My Step Dad hits me.. Alot." I stop to pull up my sleeves to show him my scars. He goes wide-eyed. I nod my head, "He told me he's coming home late and if he doesn't find me in my bedroom sleeping.. I'm scared, Roc. Everyday I'm scared. I wish this all would end." Roc stops me from opening the door, "You can't go up there. I won't let you." I lean in and kiss him. He kisses me back with so much passion and love, making me wish I went out with him sooner. I look at him and smile, "Where else would I go?" And with that I leave the car and run up the stairs as fast as I could.
***
I get in my bed and pretend I'm asleep. I hear my Step Dad coming up the stairs. I pray he didn't notice me outside in Roc's car. I hear him slam open the door and automatically panic. The door closes and he gets on top of me. He whispers in my ear, "I know you're awake. Don't think I didn't see you coming out of that car just now." I sigh, "I'm sorry. I-" And with that he slaps me across my face so hard, I can feel my cheek turning red. He yanks the covers off of me, "So who was that? A boy?" I shake my head, "No, just one of my girlfriends from school." He lays his hand on my leg, "Good. 'Cause you don't need no boyfriend to make you feel good. I'm all you need." I shiver, "I should get some sleep."
He shakes his head, "Nuh-uh. Remember that surprise I had for you."
I close my eyes, "I really don't want it."
"Well, too bad." And with that, he starts to unzip my pants but I slap his hand away. He punches my arm and I cringe. He takes his fingers and shoves them into me. I yelp at the pain and kick him into the wall. He gets on top of me and punches me in the stomach causing me to topple over. I yell, "Why don't you just leave me alone?!" He pulls my chin up so I was looking at him, "You are so vulnerable that's why. Don't worry, I'll get that pussy soon." He exits my room and I sit on my bed and cry myself to sleep.
