Where's the Loyalty ?

Let's Start Over

(Friday night September 11th)

I woke up in sweat and my heart was beating fast as I grasped for air. I look over at my phone and the time read 11:50pm and I had 2 messages from Chris and two from an unknown. Me and Chris have been keeping in contact with one another but we haven't seen each other since Jay's party and I was fine with that. I knew I was still on his mind because he was on mines it was clear we missed each other.

I quickly got out of bed and went to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face. I looked at my pills with a thought to take them but I ignored it and went back to bed. My phone dinged again so I checked my messages from Chris, he claims he want to hang out soon but we'll see he's known for spinning. Then I read my messages from the unknown number and I froze as I read the texts. "I KNOW WHAT REALLY HAPPENED THAT NIGHT" "I'VE ALWAYS BEEN WATCHING YOU AND I STILL AM".

I sat there froze as I questioned myself. How do they know? Who is this person? How did they get my number? Is it somebody from that night? The last thought made my heart drop , why would the people closest to me do this? It made since though nobody else was there besides us the person who did it had to be in that house that night. I spent all these years blaming Chris when I never considered anybody else. From now on I knew I had to be careful and watch my back because there was no loyalty. I laid back down we these thoughts on my mind till I drifted off to sleep.

The next morning I got up did my hygiene and got dressed. It was Saturday so there was no need for my sister to be up but I still went to her room to find her woke.

"Hey T why you up"

"I couldn't sleep"

"Why not you do realize it's Saturday"

"Because you were having nightmares and kept screaming so every few hours I would check on you. They started around 1:00am and don't think I haven't noticed you haven't been taking the pills she looked me in my eyes. I don't remember having nightmares but I knew the messages had to trigger me. I couldn't lie to her anymore I was caught she knew.

"The pills don't work and besides I'm not crazy'

"Never said you were crazy Z but the pills do help stop the nightmares you just need to take them she paused for a moment. "Were the nightmares about that night Z" she looked at me with sympathy.

"I honestly don't know I can't remember" I mumbled.

"Zaria what happened that night tell me" I looked at her with a blank expression then I figured it was time to tell her. Soon as I started to my phone was ringing and it was Chris so I picked up.

"Hello"

"Hey Z you busy or got any plans today"

"Nah I'm just chilling why you ask"

"I was thinking we can go get something... to eat... or chill..... or something" I chuckled because he sounded nervous.

"You sound nervous as hell but yeah I'll join come pick me up" he laughed.

"Yeah I was I thought you would say no but here I come" with that he hung up and I told my sister I'll be back. I went to my room to put on something more presentable and grab purse. A black Benz pulled up and I knew it was him, I walked out the house and walked up to the car. He got out and opened the door even thought he had on a Nike jogging fit he looked good. I was surprised at his actions but I said thanks and we pulled off. He asked me where did I want to eat and I told him to surprise me. 20 minutes later we pulled up to our old favorite restaurant "The Food Palace" and I smiled. He parked and we walked inside and sat down, we requested water and our food from the waitress. Once she walked away then the conversation began.

"Just like old times I see you remembered" I smiled.

"Of course I remember everything about those days" he smiled back.

"Yeah the were the best" he pulled something out of his pocket and held it out to me. It was the ring he gave to me in my backyard , I knew I threw it at him when I got upset but I didn't think he would keep it.

"Wow you still have this" I took it out his hand and observed it.

"Of course I never stopped thinking about you. I don't know why I didn't fight for you and when you got sent away those two summers I felt really bad. I knew you blamed me but I wanted to tell you so bad it wasn't me"

"Then why didn't you".

"Because I didn't think you were going to believe me" I looked in his eyes and felt bad about blaming him but not about giving the ring back he still did hurt me in a way.

"I'm sorry about that but you still did hurt me that's why I gave the ring back".

"I know and I'm really sorry which is why I wanted to ask you to start over , give it a clean slate" I thought about it I wasn't sure on the trusting part but I know everybody deserves a second chance.

"We can try but we need to take it slow okay" he nodded his head and then the waitress sat down our food. We ate and talked about a few more things.

"Did you ever think about us".

"Yes, I did... that's why I couldn't believe you would hurt me and I never considered nobody else".

"Do you still think about us now".

"Yeah sometimes I wondered if I would ever see you again" he nodded his head.

"I wish I knew who did it" he sighed.

"Me too so these damn nightmares can go away" he grabbed my hand and rubbed it.

"I'm here for you again Z , I promised I wouldn't leave your side" I smiled and said thank you. He paid for our food and we left. As we were walking out my phone went off it was probably Tori texting me. When I looked at the message everything froze, this person wasn't going to stop and it couldn't be Chris. It said"DID YOU ENJOY YOUR DATE". and with that everything went black.