I used to hate you

Pretty Blossoms

I don't know why he left the class so fast, was he angry or something. As soon as the teacher dismissed us, he sped off like a rocket. Dreyar kept looking at me very flirtatiously. It's probably nothing.  

As soon as the bell rang, everyone started to pack up. After Brendon left, Dreyar was walking towards me. It was already embarrassing that he already saw me dancing, Now he's coming up to me. As my face becomes red as Dreyar takes each step towards me. He said "thanks for the show this morning, but I'm going to head out" smiling with joy. He turns around and leaves the classroom in triumph. 

My brain could not compute what just happened. It took me a second to wrap my head around what he just said. My best friend had to smack my hand for me to come to reality. "Ouch, that hurt," I said being extra sarcastic. She looked at me with annoyance, "You were acting like a fanboy just now, It was disgusting" she told me with her face in disgust. "At least I'm not fawning over someone I could have had" I said with a smug look on my face looking at a certain someone leaving the classroom. She instantly blushed with embarrassment "leave me alone" she said "besides he doesn't like me".

I sighed in sadness, "you don't know that, I mean he is a bit shy" I said encouraging her. She smiled a little "thanks Lene" she said to me. I smiled and hugged her and said "let's head home,"  I said as we walked out the door.

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As I sat on the concrete bench under the blossom trees in the school garden, I felt defeated disappointed in myself.

why am I such an idiot, why didn't do it when I had the chance. I laid my back on the concrete seat and looked up at the trees. In awe, I always looked at them. They were always so peaceful, swaying in the wind as the beautiful, pink, petals fall from the tree.

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"Why are you so obsessed with me, why won't you tell me,"  he said in anger as tears streamed down his face. 

"Because, well, I don't know why I'm obsessed with you,"  I said as sorrow washed over me. 

"I like being around you, Is that a crime!"  I shouted at him with tears welling in my eyes.  

"But do you like me?"  he asked hoping to get an answer from me.

"I... I don't know"  I said as a tear trickled down my cheek.

He looked at me with disbelief and anger and said "if you can't make your decision, don't look for me"  he said and jumped into the moving truck and drove away"

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don't worry, I promise you I'm ready.