Warning brief mention of Self- Harm .
I bumped into a curly haired cutie while skating away . I look up to see FInn’s freckles and curls scattered . HIs hair a mess Finn smelled of the two w’s weak and whisky . He had round Harry Potter esque glasses . Hanging from his nose , I could feel tears blur my vision . I knew I fell hard for him . It's hard for anything. The only thing keeping me here is my drugs . My best friend's Mr.Cancer sTick , Ms.blunt , lastly Mr,Vape .
I sang as I rode away lyrics from our song .
Reaching home ,my tear stained face hidden from my aunt . I raced over to my book of letters . Reading them all bull shit . Of how I’m supposed to accept the fact that my own Father chose a beer over his own child , his flesh and blood. How the bullshit of my Mother accepting it all was okay with me . Jack knew me better than anyone , he knew what I wrote was pure horse shit . Jack Knew pouring out my feelings was hard because that meant breaking down my goddamn walls . I broke down in the middle of my room bursting into tears letting them fall down my face . Snot dripping from my nose running off my chin I could feel my tears pass my lips . I could taste the salt , I wanted to reopen my scars . Finn I foolishly attached to , clinging to his every move like a child with their first favorite toy . I was so stupid to let my emotions flow freely for once . Jack would have told me not to let my walls down . But he’s not here and I made the goddamn mistake of letting someone in . I wish I didn’t because I knew that my heart was going to be broken and gone by the next day .
All these voices in my head get louder screaming at me hateful things . Peer pressuring me to just grab another drug . I wanted to inject myself and make my feelings go away for a while .
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Druggie
FanfictionAt age 16 she became the person she never wanted to be . Drowned out by society , therefore she turned to drugs to numb the pain . When she meets a curley haired boy her life changes . For better or for worse?
