Ok so i kinda have friends now
We've practically spent every day together since we met and i have to admit, I'm having more fun than i did in NY. I loved my old squad but my new friends are so genuine and fun to be around. Yesterday, i wore an old tee shirt and leggings with a hole in them and no one mentioned to me once how i looked homeless. If Paige had seen me, she would have insisted i go home and change, or at least tie up my shirt. Maybe it's for the best that Paige hasn't communicated with me at all since i moved. As hard as i try to ignore it, I'm starting to realize she may have been the root of my self-confidence issues. Anyway, life's been great these last few weeks and it's kinda hard to believe that in just a couple weeks school will be starting again. Sierra and the gang are all going to the same high school as me so I'll already have friends before it starts. I'm settling in quite nicely here and i expect the good times are just getting started.
It turns out that my friends are all obsessed with Tik Tok. The twins are low-key famous but they never brag about it. Individually they each have about 10k (like Paige) but their Twin account has close to 75 THOUSAND followers! I've even had the honour of being in a Tik Tok with them. None of my videos have gotten the attention of the first one but i've slowly gained about 2,000 followers so know i have a grand total of 5k. That's 1/15 of the followers that the twins have (I had to use a calculator) but still it feels like a lot.
It was raining yesterday and Sierra insisted we all take pictures in the rain. We all got soaked but had the best time I've had in a long time. Sierra's phone died like 10 minutes in so i lent her mine to take pictures and videos. We danced and sang along to all the best songs and when we got tired we lay down on the pavement. I would've stayed out there forever but it was getting late and everyone had to go eat dinner. Walking home i couldn't stop smiling because this was literally everything i had imagined Cali being like and i wondered whether anything could top it. After dinner, i started scrolling through all the photos Sierra had taken. She literally maxed out my storage with all the photos and videos she took but i wasn't complaining. I started picking out the good photos to send to the group chat when i came across a video that i watched maybe 30 times before posting it to my insta story. The video was just me, which usually would have made me uncomfortable, but not this time. I was dancing to the music while the rain made my hair stick to the back of my neck. I was totally zoned out and I looked so happy. I usually hate watching videos of myself because i always pick out my insecurities and obsess over them but not this video... I couldn't find anything to hate about myself. I smiled and sent it to my mom so she knew i was doing well, she wanted me to text her. I opened Tik Tok. Of course, i had to upload this video. Maybe some of my friends from New York would see how well i was doing in LA. I clicked upload, no tags, no #fyp because quite honestly i didn't care if anyone saw it, i just wanted to share it. I smiled watching myself spin in the rain before closing the app and plugging in my phone. What a day.
