arrows (yoonseok fanfiction)

↞fourteen↠

Today

I finally don't throw up.

But I wish that I would've

because I want to die.

The target is gone again

and I'm alone

in this cursed

cursed

bed.

I crawl out again

because I can't trust myself to stand

and I find a sun room

with a skylight

and I lay there

sprawled like a sea star

staring up towards a bright star

in the house of a fallen star.

The fallen star isn't home

but he is now

as I hear the door opening

and footsteps going to the bedroom 

I was supposed to be in

but this sunlight warmed my bones

just enough

to fill a drop

in the empty pool

of my will to live.

The footsteps are frantic

when he realizes I'm not in bed

and he bursts into this room

with a worried look

that turns to relief upon seeing me.

My face is close to his

when he scoops me into his arms.

The eye contact

is warmer than the sunlight.