one track mind | tobio kageyama

distracted and confused

kageyama

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It had been a couple months since that game, and my feelings about Miyako only grew.

Instead of letting her ask all the questions about me, I asked her questions, and was adamant about making sure she answered.  One of them being if she was the one buying me milks before lunch when we had more study sessions. She was fairly flustered, but she admitted to it once I told her Hinata had kind of made it obvious it wasn't him or Yachi. 

I asked about the game, too. She wouldn't directly answer me, but she mentioned that she would have been really upset if all of her new friends hadn't come to watch her and she was glad Hinata made sure I was there. 

The study sessions weren't as frequent, since exams had passed, but Hinata and I still went to Yachi and Miyako's class for lunch. It was one of the good parts of my day.

No matter how often I saw her, the butterflies were always there. 

I would find myself thinking about little things about her in class and during practice, like her laugh or the way she talks about the things she's passionate about. I would admit to myself that she was pretty, and even on occasion say it out loud. 

Our conversations moved on from talking about our pasts to about our futures. She said she wanted to do something in the arts, keeping volleyball as a hobby or a memory, whereas I wanted to stay and make it somewhere big with volleyball. We both had different ideas as to where we saw ourselves. 

Until the topic of relationships came up.

Miyako had given stuff like that a lot of thought, explaining what she wanted in a guy and what she hoped to have. I found myself comparing myself to what she'd say, and when I didn't see myself fitting something, it kind of hurt. I wasn't used to that feeling, but it was one I didn't like. When she asked me what I wanted, I just sat there, since it never crossed my mind. I didn't need to think about girls because I always had volleyball. The only girls I had really much interaction with was Miwa and my mom. I felt stupid saying that, so I knew I had to come up with something. 

"Well, someone like you would be nice,"

Once the words left my mouth, I saw her cheeks turn bright red, and I felt my heart drop straight to my stomach. 

I shouldn't have said that.

I opened my mouth to explain, but she cut me off.

"You mean that?" She whispered, still in visible shock. Her eyes were practically stars. I didn't know if she was excited or just in disbelief, either way, I did mean it, so I nodded. 

The smile on her face was the same one she had when she won the championships, and the butterflies were stronger than ever. I had no idea what I had just started, if I had even started anything, but I had just made her smile in a way I didn't think I could. 

I had made her as happy as that fateful game day, and that in itself was something I took pride in. 

"What's with all the smiling over there, you two? Kageyama looks like he might explode," Hinata teased, completely ruining the moment. Miyako laughed, though. She looked at me, her smile just as bright.

"That means a lot to me, Tobio," 

This was all I could think about during practice. 

Not only had she smiled like that but she had called me by my first name. She had never called me by my first name, at least not to my face. Something about her in that moment changed, I could feel it. It was a good change, I think. I swear I could feel something radiating off of her for the remainder of lunch. It felt like she became the sun and her sunshine was being shared with me. I didn't want to leave her side. I don't know how to explain it but I just really liked what was going on.