No one knows

Do you know?

I was always there but you barely saw me. In the beginning I felt important but now I just feel used. You stole my heart and now you are slowly and painfully breaking it, the real question is, do you know you are?
Do you know that when you hurt yourself you put me through pain, that when your sad I can't help but worry, that when you do something dangerous it keeps me up at night hoping that you will be okay in the morning. Do you know the things you do effect me too. When I get you to smile or laugh my day automatically becomes better. I wonder what you think when I smile or laugh. Do you do these things on purpose and hope to one day tear me down all the way just so you can see me suffer. Or are you truly so oblivious that you don't see me shattering right in front of you. I may not be the the one you still love, but that doesn't mean I ever stopped caring for you. Please don't make me feel even worse than I already do. Yes I know I have let you down and I'm no longer the one you think of when you hear love but that doesn't mean I don't care what happens to you. The real question is do you already know that but play with my emotions as a game you can never lose. Do you know all these things I think but never say?
Do you?