The Pain of Flowers (Todomomo Hanahaki AU)

|Chapter 2.| Not Enough....

A/N: This picture above is sad to me. It's like Momo's apart from the group and looking in, wishing to truly be with them. Scroll past song, and think of it while in the stories context. It's really sad to me.... Any how, enjoy!

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Momo P.O.V.

I reassemble my thoughts, which is no easy feat considering how I feel like I have a train wreck in my head. I take a deep breath, standing up and creating a handkerchief to wipe the blood. I fold it into my pocket when I am done, and begin the walk of dread.

I swallow down the panic and hysteria growing in my chest, flowering in the same as the wisteria flowers that had sprouted within my breast. It was funny really. A flower that represented devotion, love, support, bliss, tenderness, and most laughably of all, immortality and longevity, was killing me.

I could not seem to decide whether or not to laugh or cry. I chose laugh, my cries of laughter ringing in the breezy autumn evening; it was better than crying more. I walk, brooding in my thoughts, and calming myself down for the interrogation I was going to get in the dorm from the girls.

 I stop outside the dormitory and I take a deep breath, praying for composure and serenity, or at least the façade of it.

"I will be happy," I mutter to myself. "I won't worry anyone. Don't panic, find more information on it, it could be treatable."

With these words to psyche myself up, I step forward and into the dorms. 

I'm greeted almost immediately by Mina, Toru, Tsu, Jiro, and Ochako, who all squeal and yell, "Yaomomo! You're finally here!" 

They give me a big hug before they pull me to the couch, begging for answers to questions about my study session with Todoroki.

In seeing their enthusiasm, I realize I really could not tell them. These happy smiles, these excited questions, these bright, joyful moments, would surely fade it I told them that I had Hanahaki. So I smiled, and did my very best to act normal and happy. 

I would not worry them.

I refused.

I was doing fine, in fact I had nearly forgotten the new anxiety in my chest, until Mina asked the question I was dreading. The question that could reveal the façade I was so terribly keeping.

"Yaomomo, how did your study session with Todoroki go? Was it fuuuuun?" she smiled and laughed as she dragged out the last word, her pink cheeks filled with a smile and her black and gold eyes suggestive. 

I nearly broke down from the question right then and there, it hit me like a sack of bricks and made me want to cry again.

I shoved the budding emotions in me down and with my already blushing face said with a smile, "Mina! It was just to help him study English, calm down! And yes, it was fun, we got to learn together, and he was able to understand English better, so of course I'm happy, cause I got to help my friend!"

She pouted and booed with a exaggerated pout, "You're no fuuuun!"

I smirked at her and said with a bit of a devilish grin, "Now that's enough about me, what about you? Did you tell Kirishima?"

She blushed and was starting to protest but it was too late—everyone else had pounced on the question, as I had anticipated. I participated in teasing her, and I found it a bit easier to breath with her and everyone else's prying attention no longer on me. After gossiping and laughing and joking for another hour, we all went to our dorm rooms at curfew, hugging each other goodbye.