Be My Remedy [Jinkook] ✔️

Feeling

Seokjin peeks from the sliding door, looking at his mother, who sat on the chair in the garden. He looks down, sighed then slowly makes steps towards her. Once he reached, he notice his father standing at a distance checking or admiring flowers in the garden. Seokjin knelt down on the ground, beside his mother. He placed his arm on his mother's lap, leaned his head over his arm and closed his eyes.

Hee aware of her son's presence, still refused to look at him, fixed her gaze straight.

"What the hell's going on here,Jin?",

Seokjin opened his eyes once heard her but he stays in his place.

"I thought you were happy,Jin",

Seokjin finally gave up and tear ran down from his eyes.

"What's happening here? With them? With you? Why are you pretending to be someone you're not? Where is the Jin we used know? He never tolerant whoever disrespect him but what happened suddenly? I'm not hurt over what she said, what hurts the most is that you didn't even try to say anything",

Seokjin gets up from her lap and looks at her when droplets of tears, which drips from his mother's eyes touched his cheek.

"Eomma",

"Just why, Seokjin?!",

She asked without looking at him, her lips trembling and on other side his father watching and listening to them, silently. Seokjin clenched his jaw and wipes her mother's tears.

"You're right. I'm not your Jin....I look at myself but I'm missing. I know myself; it's not me, not anymore... I'm not the Seokjin I used to be. I'm not, Eomma...",

Seokjin mumbled. Hee looks at her son and furrow her brows.

"We never know what going to happen in our life, so do i.....I never know I'm going to hate someone this much.....I never know taking decision can be this hard....I never know my hate going to turn into something else... something I couldn't even name it......and...I never...I never know I begin to have feelings for the same person who I hated the most in this world....The thoughts of that certain person kept appearing and disturbing me so much....",

Hee gulped and Seokjin looks down.

"At first, I don't even know it's happening....everything starts with arguments and fight. I just hated him. I hated Jungkook more than anything. This is not us. We're not friends. We had a deal. If I stays with him for a month, he will leave me, us, this college and from my life forever....And tomorrow going to be the last day of our deal....after tomorrow I can't able to see him..... he will leave me forever.....and after that there's nothing left between me and him",

Tears dripped from his eyes. Hee's eyes flooded with tears after Seokjin shared everything with her, including Jungkook's past. She placed her hand on his shoulder. Seokjin looks up at his mother with teary eyes.

"Now tell me what should I do? Should I leave because I promised to Jimin, who believes and waiting for me that I will be back to hostel or stay with Jungkook, who loves me more than everything?.....I feel stuck somewhere....I'm trying to make me more stronger, so I can make a quick decision....but I can't...I'm just stuck between who I wants to be with and who I should be with...",

"And I can't blame anyone either, Jimin or Jungkook...It should be me, I should blame myself because everything happening just like I wanted but I don't know why, I feels like I'm not going to win over this deal. Suddenly I feels something different....like...I don't know how to describe but....hurts? Part of me wants to leave at the same time, another part telling me don't....what should I do, eomma?",

"Do you love Jungkook,Jin?",

The said name taken aback and stared at his mother then glances down.