bleeding hearts.

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leigh.

"last dance?"

i didn't answered him and continued lowering my head. ni hindi ko siya magawang tignan ng maayos kasi alam ko sa sarili kong maiiyak lang ako. i don't want to cause a scene here.

"leigh," he mouthed my name as a tear fell down in that instant that he called my name. tangina mo, josiah. ang galing mong magpaiyak talaga.

is this really our goodbye? wala na ba talaga?

"sige na, give me a chance," he kneeled down infront of me then showed his bunny smile while extending his hand. hindi ko alam kung lalambot yung puso ko kasi binibigyan niya ko ng ganyang klaseng ngiti, o mawawasak dahil alam kong huling ngiti na yon.

think twice, leigh.

if i take his hand, it'll be the last. if i'll accept it, this will never happen again.

"please?"

ganon ba talaga kahirap lumaban sa relasyong to, to the point na kailangan naming humantong sa ganito?

this is not what i've expected. this is not in my dream. this isn't what i wanted to feel. pero sa lahat ng mga ayaw ko, alam kong wala na din akong magagawa.

exhaling a very deep sigh, i slowly reached for his hand. tanging ngiti ang muli nyang isinukli bago niya ko hinatak sa gitna ng dance floor at hinawakan ang aking bewang.

funny how the situation we have right now, clearly matches the song that's playing.

tangina ka, tadhana.

love that i thought that would
last forever has set.
now even my friends are leaving..

"leigh, stop crying. alam mong ayaw kong nakikita kitang ganyan-"

"then stop making me cry!" my voice was literally shaking, but i still had the strength to tell him those words before crying again.

we're just there, dancing at the middle, spending the last few minutes that we'll have together.

because i'm getting older,
i guess i'm becoming an adult..

why am i so anxious?

"it'll be hard for the both of us, i know.." josiah sighed, holding me tightly. "but this is the only way.."

"only way, josh? we'd break our own hearts because you think that's the only way?"

i can't help but to question him, kahit alam kong i agreed to this already, ang hirap paring paniwalaan na iiwan nalang namin ng basta.

why am i crying? why can't i accept it? why am i acting like a baby?

"leigh.."

"josh, please.." i started to whimper and hugged him tightly. he gently pulled me closer at niyakap na din ako. wala na akong pakealam kung magtinginan yung mga tao.

savour the moment, leighlanie. this will only be your last dance with him.

people linger in the past today again
the world goes on just fine without me

i’m still young
i’m still immature..

why am i so stupid?