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Chapter 8 Cindy's Goodbye

It happened shortly after that October day. I was with Alex in her room. It was already nighttime and the moon was full, it's silvery glow lighting up the room. She was already fast asleep. I, on the other hand, was wide awake, knowing that I only had a short amount of time left before I disappeared.
The moons glow illuminated the room with silvery light. It light up everything from the closet to the bed where I stayed. Alex slept peacefully, oblivious to what was about to happen.
Suddenly, smoke began to emit from all around me. I turned to Alex and sat by her. As I waited, I remembered a certain song...

I wonder if this light inside my heart has been right here all along
And I've never noticed it at all
'Cause every time I stumble down
Or have to take the long way around
It shines on me forever more

The distant singing of the bells
If you listen close it tells
A lonely story

Once more, I'll push my fears away
All that I endure today will make me stronger

"It did" I thought.

The mere repeating of reality alone
Aligns the stars and all the wishes they take on
At last I've found something to chase with all my might
I cannot fight or go against these feelings

I smiled, finally knowing the true meaning of these words

No matter if one day I wake and blink away this world around me
And I'm lost in thoughts of what could be
I know that I will find my way
'Cause now I have this light within me
It shines on me forever more

I was becoming more and more like smoke.

Every night following that dream
Where I threw away that old and silly ribbon
Lights have adorned the city streets
And I've been without one fret or worry within

I need a sanctuary that will keep me safe as if protected by an angel in heaven if I cannot have wings I'd like someone to trust I know it most feel wonderful like magic

If I could chose
I'd stay like this forever while this world around me
Fills with colors I have never seen
I know I wouldn't hesitate
'Cause now the colors of each moment
Will change and change forever more

Answers we cannot find
No matter if they're not kind
We'll find it even blind
That is true in my mind

I'm believing till the end
That we are similar, my friend
One day I'll shine like this Dream World

Around this line, I began to cry. Not from sadness or fear, but from all the happy memories I've had.

If you just take a moment to blink all those tears away from your eyes
And you manage to conceal your cries
You'll never fear again because
The future you yearned for in heartache
Will shine on you forevermore
Without a limit

No matter if one day I wake and blink away this world around me
And I'm lost in thoughts of what could be
I know that I will find my way
'Cause now I have this light within me
It shines on me forevermore
And shines and shines forevermore
For you and me, eternally
I turned to Alex and whispered something to her.
" See you later.... Keep dreaming.... Alex.."

By the time dawn came around, I was gone.