//𝙩𝙬// 𝙙𝙮𝙨𝙥𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙣𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙨 //
𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙧𝙙 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣'𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙫
𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙝𝙨 𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧
"hey, mikey" elijah frowns when he enters the room seeing michael on the floor crying his eyes out "come here, bub" he says before michael immediately throws himself in the other's arms
"i hate how i look, eli. i don't feel like myself. i don't want that body anymore. it's not michael, not me" the pink haired boy cries harder in his best friend's arms
"babe, we'll get more money and you can get your surgeries done, love, it's all gonna be okay, you're gonna be in mikey's body so soon" elijah comforts the boy by rubbing his back and whispering sweet nothings in his ears
"i just wanna feel like a boy, i hate how much i look like a girl" michael sighs
"don't you ever think about maybe getting a binder at least we can afford that, more than we can afford a surgery" elijah mumbles
"i'm always thinking about that, but the money can be more useful to other things or people than a binder, i'll deal with it till i get surgery" michael looks down at the floor, truly wishing he had a binder, it would just make him feel like michael
"mikey, you're just as important as everyone here, you should treat yourself with whatever you want, you truly need it and i can tell from your face" elijah smiles
although, michael doesn't believe that, he decides to just ignore it "i have to get back to work and check on everyone" he stands up from the ceramic white floor and into the other rooms
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"will you be here when i wake up?" ashton asks luke, his voice shaky
luke starts thinking of how ashton must feel, and he feels so fucking bad for him, he can never even sleep without waking up in the middle of the night gasping for air, wishing he'd get out of his haunting dreams
"yeah, babe i'll be here for you when you wake up, don't worry, i'm not leaving you" luke sighs, kissing ashton's forehead goodnight
moments later of them talking till ashton is falling asleep to the voice that comforts him the most, luke's
ashton couldn't be more grateful for luke, these past couple months since he's joined this shelter haven't been how he'd want them to be and honestly he'd be lying if he said he was happy, or even okay, but he feels so safe with luke, he loves talking to the blonde, his voice brings him peace from his nightmares
couple hours later and luke is startled from heavy pants and breathing coming from the boy next to him
"hey, hey, i got you, it's just another dream, ashy. we're here and we're safe, nothing is gonna happen" luke rushes to ashton's side trying to wake him up
"don't touch me" ashton's body jolts away when luke touches him
"hey, it's me, it's luke, i won't hurt you i promise, he's not here anymore, xavier isn't here anymore, just luke that's here" luke tears up watching his best friend trying so hard to just wake up from a nightmare, it breaks luke to see ashton like that
ashton told luke everything, starting from the beginning of his relationship with his ex boyfriend to how it ended. ashton truly trusted luke, and luke trusted ashton, they were the perfect duo and the whole shelter knew it, the ones that are working or the ones that are living in it or the ones that just joined yesterday
"hey, bub you're back" luke smiles when he sees ashton's teary eyes come in view
"he wanted to use me, luke" ashton whispers shakily in luke's arms
"he's a dick, he doesn't deserve you, don't worry it's safe here and he's never gonna do anything to hurt you. everyone in this shelter are your friends and we're all gonna save you from anything and anyone, always" luke kisses his best friend's forehead and just prays for him to get better and have less nightmares.
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do i do a good job at ending chapters? lmao cuz like i never know what to end it with ngl
i also hate how this is written but i'm just gonna pretend i don't care and publish lol
but, anyway hope that chapter wasn't too depressing or anything, happier chapters are coming, i promise
oh, and harry's chapter is also coming i just don't know how to write it yet, but i wanted to publish, so here's a chapter
okay, i'll leave sorry
love you all
~ maram <3
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