To what makes a princess.

Forbidden

" Felix." 

Never in my life had i heard my heart beating so fast, yet I feel calm. In this boy, no he is no longer a boy, this man's arms, I feel calm, as if he will protect me from any storm. 

The tears just wont stop. For the first time in my life, I don't care for my late father or brother. I don't care for my elder brother. I only see Felix. My knight. 

My eyes feel heavy, I have the horrible urge to close my eyes as I stare into his eyes. He holds me so tight against himself. I feel so warm, so safe. 

" Evangeline, forgive me. " he leans down and I feel it. The love he holds for me. I feel as if I am a young girl again. I feel as if the excitement I held that day was answered. His lips feel so rough against my own. and when he pulls away, I feel how ragged his breath is, much like my own. I can see the nervousness he felt, the fear he felt. 

I hold my hand up to his face. 

" Felix. You can't... I.. I can't... " I don't know what to say. We will not be forgiven. Not by elder brother, not by society. but I can't help but want more. 

I hold his face in my hands and reach up kiss him once again. He tightened his grip on my and gratefully kisses me back with more passion, more love than I've ever felt in life. The only way I can describe it is addicting but we know. The both of us know that nothing will come of this. He slowly pulls away and hugs me to his chest. 

" Sadly milady, we must go for if we're gone for to long, I'm sure your elder brother will worry. " He makes a good point but truthfully I don't want to go. I like the bubble we've made for ourselves. I'm not ready for what ever will come. How will this event tonight change anything and everything in the near future. 

As if reading my mind, Felix, my kind knight, smiles and kisses the top of my head. 

" Everything will be alright princess. " 

After cleaning my face and straightening out my dress, I look over to my knight and watch as he straightens himself out as well. 

We walk back into the ball to find our group as no one seems to notice anything based on how I look but as soon as I get to my brother's side he reaches for my face, rubbing the skin under my eyes. 

" I have already killed him, you have nothing to fear. " I don't react to his words but I see the good intentions behind his words. He realizes that that was not the reason I cried. 

" Who was it. I'll slaughter them.. " He doesn't even try to whisper and the people around us suddenly step away. 

" Everything is alright elder brother. My appointed knight has scared my fears away. There no longer anything to fear here. "  I smiles softly up at my blond brother, our eyes mirroring each other. 

" Felix, report back to me when we return. it seems you have too much time on your hands. " Brother orders without looking away from me. Anyone could smell the fear drifting of off the poor knight but I can only smile. 

" I love you elder brother. " His eyes widen slightly and before he can react, I turn to my beautiful niece. 

" And my gorgeous birthday girl, I love you dearly." I kiss her forehead and lastly I turn to Felix. He smiles at me so kindly that I might be afraid that I'll kiss him by accident. 

" My dear knight, Felix, I love you as well." I curtsy. He takes my hand bowing to kiss it's knuckles. 

Elder brother walks right in between out exchange fiercely glaring at Felix. " Let us go back to the palace. I've had enough." 

His eyes look angry but I her it in his voice, he is satisfied

I'll never know what my brother is thinking but. 

I frown 

no matter, what I feel for Felix, what has happened today, is forbidden, and will not be forgiven.