Why//kiribaku

The explosion

(haha. I feel bad for these characters because I keep torturing them. Let's just say I feel bad for Kiri in this chapter. And there's more depressing stuff in here and this is probably the most depressing chapter.)
Kirishima POV
I'm excited because today is the sports festival. The first event was an obstacle course. Midnight was the host of the sports festival and Mr. Aizawa and Present Mic were the announcers.

During the obstacle course there were robots to fight. I got trapped under one of them, but because of my quirk, I survived. But then, there was this guy with a quirk similar to mine, and his name was Tetsutetsu Tetsutetsu. The obstacle course went in for a while and I got 9th place and Bakugo got 3rd.

Bakugo POV
I got 3rd place in the obstacle course. I can't believe Deku and Icy Hot beat me. Next is this stupid calvary battle. All of these extras asked to be on my team. I ended up choosing Kirishima, Raccoon eyes and tape arms.

We were trying to get Deku's headband until this class 1b jerk took mine. His quirk was that he could copy other quirks. He copied mine, then copied Kirishima's. I ended up getting it back. But I couldn't get Deku's because Icy Hot took it. We ended up getting second place.

Next was the finals. Here were the matches for the first round.

Deku vs purple hair mind controlling guy
Icy Hot vs Tape arms
Dunce face vs the one with the green vine hair in class 1b
Four eyes vs annoying support girl
Racoon eyes vs Gay guy with laser
Bird brain vs Ponytail
Kirishima ❤️ vs another version of Kirishima
Me vs Pink Cheeks

I didn't pay attention to the first six matches because they were lame. I watched Kirishima's. They tied because they both passed out. But afterwards they had an arm wrestling match and my boyfriend won.

Now I had to fifth against pink cheeks/round face. She's okay I guess. She's never done anything to annoy me besides her weird obsession with Deku.

The match started. Damn this girl is actually strong. She should've gave up early on, but she kept going. Everyone in the audience thinks I'm a jerk, including Present Mic. Eventually she passed out and I won.

For the next round here are the people fighting.

Deku vs Icy Hot
Four eyes vs the one with the green vine hair in class 1b
Bird brain vs raccoon eyes
Me vs Kirishima

-time skip to Kirishima and Bakugo's match sponsored by the donut Mineta took from Todoroki-

Ok, so now it was time for me to go up against Kirishima, who said he's gonna win. But we all know I'm gonna win.

Our fight went on for a little bit. Kirishima unactivated his quirk for a second. And I shot an explosion at him.

He got hurt badly and had to go to the hospital. Apparently I couldn't visit him, because I had to keep fighting in the festival. Next I had to go up against bird brain. I won.

Next I had to go up against Icy Hot. He didn't even use his fire, but he used it against Deku.

After the sports festival I went to the hospital. Kirishima was still unconscious. I was watching the monitor and then his heart stopped beating.

The doctors came in and revived him, and his heart was beating perfectly fine afterwards. But damn, that scared me. A few hours later he woke up. "Bakugo what happened?" He asked confused. I started crying. "I'm sorry Kirishima! I don't deserve to have an amazing boyfriend like you! It's all my fault your here right now!" I yelled. He looked at me confused.

"Your heart stopped beating for a few minutes and it's all my fault! I'll never forgive myself for this! I'm the worst person ever! I shouldn't have won that sports festival! I shouldn't even be alive now! People act like having a dangerous quirk is a good thing but it's not! The world would be better if I wasn't even born!" I yelled. Kirishima was about pass out again.

"Don't you dare close your eyes! I'll never forgive myself if you die! I'm not even forgiving myself right now! I'll never be a good hero! I should just go back to my abusive mom, because I guess that's what I deserve! I deserve to be with my dad!" I yelled. "Bakugo. If I die, can you please not be depressed, and can you please forgive yourself. People say everything happens for a reason, so I guess I deserve this." Kirishima said as he fell back into unconsciousness. I checked his heart monitor. His heart was beating fine and just breathing was fine too, so hopefully he won't die. But if he does, I'll never forgive myself.

Apparently I had to leave the hospital, because it was getting late. I walked into my dorm room and opened my drawer. In there was a new razor blade that hasn't been used. I went into my bathroom.

I rolled up my sleeve. "This is all your fault Katsuki!" I told myself. I made a cut on my arm and the pain felt good. I made a few more, until my door opened. It was Mr. Aizawa and Present Mic.

"What the hell are you doing?" Mr. Aizawa asked. "None of your business!" I yelled at him. "Bakugo. Why'd you do this?" Present Mic asked. "Once again, none of your business!" I replied. "Bakugo, we just wanna help you and we can't do that if you don't tell us what's going on." Mr. Aizawa asked. "Fine. Kirishima almost died because of me, during our fight at the sports festival." I said. "Bakugo. Accidents happen. It was not your fault. You shouldn't be blaming yourself." He said. "But it was my fault!" I yelled. "Okay. Was the time you needed brain surgery Kirishima's fault?" He asked. "Of course it wasn't!" I said. "Well he almost cut himself because he was blaming himself. And I don't want to see you doing the same thing." He said. "Now give me this!" He said taking the razor blade out of my hand. He bandaged up my arm. They stayed in my room until I cried myself to sleep.