Androphobia(paused)

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~boom, boom, boom~
We're the enhanced sounds of him ramming his big ragged fist against my door. "Open this door now, I promise I won't hurt you baby" he said, oh how he must think I'm a fool.
"N-no" I said through uneasy breaths. "I'm done playing with you Leilani, if you don't get your ass through this door right now, you will regret it!" He said forcefully, him trying to break through my door never ceasing.

I walked to my window and slid out. I climbed down the ladder perched on my window sill for occasions just like this. I landed and ran. That's all I ever did was ran. Just the thought of this being my life disgusts me. I was so happy, so joyful, mamas little bundle of joy was what she called me. What happened!? What went wrong.

Through my thoughts I didn't even notice I stopped running and was bawling my eyes out in front of a tree. I sat my back up against it and cradled myself. I can't imagine what he's gonna do when he finds me. It's not like I can continue running, I have to go to that horrid place I call home. My phone pinged, I looked at it and there was billie. A smile instantly arose on my lips.

Bil 🥰 : you wanna hang today ?
Me: sure 😄
Bil🥰: hell yeah, I'll see you soon yeah, drop the addy 😉
Me: actually I'm at Central Park, yk where that is?
Bil🥰: I'm actually not far from it omw 😏

I waited for Billie to come. I just thank god I had a place to escape right now even if it isn't forever. I had new, raw cuts in my wrist from before he started banging on my door. I'm wearing a hoodie and ripped jeans.

I jumped at the sound of billies horn.
"Come on!" She yelled smiling.
I laughed and ran up to her car. "Hi" I smiled.
"So what you wanna do today?" She asked,
"I don't fucking know, you invited me!" She laughed, "feisty I like it." She winked.
I chuckled and mumbled an apology. She pulled up to another park. "We left a park just to go to another one?" I said slightly confused.
"The other had to many people, let's go mamas" she said once I got out and grabbed my hand.

I blushed profusely and walked as she drug me. "What's that for?" I said once I noticed she was carrying a woven box. "You'll see" she said smiling.

She brung me to an secluded spot and sat down patting the seat next to her.
She grabbed my cut wrist and I yelped in pain. She immediately let go, her eyebrows scrunched in confusion. "I'm sorry! Did I hurt you?" She asked. "It's fine, it's nothing" I sighed. She looked at me skeptically; then her face grew in emotions I couldn't identify. "Give me your wrist" she demanded. I shook my head no. "Give me your wrist now!" She said sterner if you even possible. I sighed and passed her my wrist. She lifted up my hoodie and held my wrist. Her eyes sprung with tears.

"Why?" She asked looking at me with her glistening eyes. "Reasons, life" I responded softly. She looked at me with a flare in her eyes. "Life doesn't fucking make you slit your wrist!" She said deeply. "Well mine fucking does!" I yelled. She nodded as the sudden flare disappeared. "I'm sorry" she said. "I just hate when people do things pile this and I don't know you or nothing of your situation, so I'm sorry" she got up and walked away towards her car. "Billie!" I called running after her.

Look what you've done now Leilani.