Androphobia(paused)

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I ran after Billie instantly regretting raising my voice at her when all she wanted to do was help.

Once I got to her car I entered and sighed as I looked at a blank Billie. "I'm sorry Billie" I whispered softly. She stayed silent for a couple minutes. Just as I was about to speak up she says, "why do you do it?" She asked.

I exhaled loudly. "I have so much pain in my life-" I paused and she waited quietly listening intently. The anxiety growing deadly through my veins. I decided to continue. "It's so unwanted."  Billie hugged me. I was confused at first till she wiped tears off my face I didn't realize were there. I looked at her silently thanking her. "When I cut, it's the only pain I can control"

"I'm sorry" she whispered. "But I feel like I've known you forever and I don't wanna lose a feeling I haven't explored. I don't wanna lose you and I barely know you."

"Well how bout we get to know each other?" I asked. She smiled and nodded. "Legs play 21 questions, me first of course-" she chuckled.
"What's your full name?"

"Leilani Celeste love" I cringed at my name. She repeated it rolling it around her tongue a few times. "Beautiful" she simply said. "What's yours?" I asked curiosity taking over me. She inhaled, "Billie eilish pirate baird O'Connell" she said. I immediately burst out laughing.

She pouted and moved away from me. "Meanie" she said looking at me frowning which I saw a smile etching under her frown.

I smiled gasping for air as I reached towards Billie. "O-ok, I'm sorry" I said still coming down from my joy high. She snickered and nodded it off. "It's fine, i know it's crazy."
"I actually like it, makes you seem bad ass" I replied. She pouted once more. "You didn't already think of me as badass." I laughed again at her pouted face. She's honestly so adorable.

"Of course I did daddy" her eyes widened at my response until she wrapped her hand around my throat. "Don't be going around saying shit like that to me, you don't wanna know what I could do to you." She said lowly. I gulped and nodded. She smiled and said "good, now on to the game shall we?" I nodded. Still shook from the small encounter. And wet may I mention. Damn Billie, ma don't play.