so sick (one direction)

ziall~ I cant be fixed

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Niall tells everyone every time they try to help him, that he cant be fixed. one day he lets Zayn in, and Niall says "I've been fixed". also, we are pretending that 1d won the X-Factor and Niall was the reason they won. lets also pretend the X-Factor has golden buzzer

{Niall}

its been nine years.nine fucking years, and people are still trying to help me. I CANNOT BE FIXED. ever since I was a little boy, my mum told me I sang like an angel. in any singing contests, I always won. you see, my mum died when I was just 7. 9 years before my 16th birthday. 9 years before my life would change forever. how did my mum die? well, we were going to the hospital to have her 8 month check up. she was pregnant with my little sister. well, some asshole, decided to get drunk and drive on the wrong side of the road. the side we were on. he crashed into our car, and thankfully, the prick died on impact. I know its harsh, but its true. but me my mum? well, we were rushed into hospital, I was in a coma for a 3 hours. my mum died 3 hours after I woke up, my sister having to be born via caesarean section. she survived but my mum? oh no. she had to die. ever since she died, my dad and I looked after my sister, who I got to name Moriah Elizabeth Horan. my dad said after my mum died, that he wanted me to keep singing for her. I sang to Moriah every night before she went to bed, just like my mum did for me. but I couldn't be fixed

I would sing Keep Holding On every night for 8 years before she asked me "Ni-Ni? why do you sing me to sleep every night? I like it but I want to know." "well, Mo, you know how mummy died right?" "yeah Ni." "well, every night she would sing me to sleep, until she died, when she was pregnant with you. I was 7. but when I was 3, she told me I sang like an angel. well, daddy wanted me to keep singing in memory of mummy, and I vowed to sing to you every night so that I didn't stop singing." she was crying at the cute story "Ni? why dont you sign up for X-factor to keep her memory alive" "is that what you'd like?" "yeah!" I laughed "ok Mo. night night" "nighty!" I left her room and went to speak to my dad. I made my way down to the living room. "hey dad?" I said. "hey buddy. you ok?" "yeah. 'm fine. uhm, can I ask you something dad?" "sure son what is it?" "um, well you know that you said you wanted me to never stop singing, well, Mo said that I should apply for the X-Factor to keep mums memory alive. I would really love to do that. I want to make mummy proud and show her that I'm doing my best for her." but I couldn't be fixed

 "and you want my permission? look, son. your mum is proud of you anyway, but if you want to do it for Mo and mum and I, then your wish is my command.". thats how I got onto the X-Factor. my audition was up next, and I was nervous. I didn't know if I was good enough for the world to hear my voice, but I had to do it right? I promised my sister. it was my turn and I walked onto the stage. "hello, what's your name?" "Niall Horan" "how old are you Niall?" "16" "and why did you choose to audition for the show?" "well when I was 7, my mum was pregnant with my little sister, and we were in a car accident with a drunk driver. I came out of a coma 3 hours later, and my mum died 3 hours after that. she had always said I sang like an angel ever since I was 3 years old, and my dad said after my mum died that he wanted me to keep singing. every night since my sister was born, I have sung keep holding on to her so that I wouldn't stop singing, and she said that I should audition to keep my mums memory alive." the audience and judges all awed, some were even crying. but I couldn't be fixed

"and what will you be singing. " "Keep holding on" "where are you from?" "Mullingar Ireland"  "do you want your sister here with you? just so you are less nervous?" "uh yeah please." my sister came running onto the stage. the audience awed. "the stage is yours" they said as I picked my sister up. the music started playing and Moriah could sense I was nervous so she whispered "its ok, you've got this big bro" and then I sang.