y-you did it again , i hate you, i just wanna run and leave from all this pain that you put me through , it sucks it really sucks that I forgive you no matter what no matter the times I know you will do it again, im so tired of it. I don't deserve this I really don't, it's so frustrating being the one having to pick us up and rebuilding us, when all you do is make it crash again it sucks i wish you could just wake up and love me the way you did eighteen months ago. My heart hurts so much I hate it , I'm so in love with you , that's why I let myself and i let you treat me this way, when no woman should be treated this way, im so close to wanting to end us but I know if I do , our plans, memories, future , will all be gone but I don't want that fuck, fuck, fuck i don't want that, I just want the old you , I miss the old you.
maybe it isn't forever and always.
