Sex, Love, and Dirty Secrets

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Hi guys! I am sorry if I don't post much. I am feeling really sick and I leave on Friday (today is Sunday) for a cruise, so I won't be able to update unless I am in Florida or I have Wattpad on my Dads tablet. Also, I don't really feel good today, like everything is dizzy and I feel like puking but I am hungry and as soon as I get ready to eat I push it away and get really uncomfortable. ~~

"Fine Zayn." You say as you sit up. "No, lay back. I will cook and bring it to you" Zayn says as he carefully pushes your shoulders into the bed so you're laying down. You chuckle and Zayn puts boxers on and walk to the kitchen. Dammit, you love him so much. Why can't you be sure that he is the one though? Ever since you were in the hospital, you haven't been quite sure about this relationship. Couldn't it be just that you feel bad about having Harry kiss you? You should tell Zayn. But that's his friend. Why would you ruin their friendship? You know what, I will tell him. A few minutes later, Zayn walks in with a tray and your dinner since you have been laying in bed all day. "Zayn" you say, your voice small and you sit up so your legs are under the tray and your body is forming an "L" shape. "Hm?" Zayn says as he sits carefully on the bed, sure not to spill anything. "Remember when Harry came over the house? And you went to get him something?" You ask, not looking up at his face. A little nervous about this conversation. "Yeah, I do, love" "When you walked into the other room, he kissed me. I didn't know what to do. I don't remember what happened when he took me out, but I do know he kissed me on the sofa" your eyes fill with tears and your body gets still. You can't lose him. "Baby please look at me" Zayn says. You can't look at him. Your hands cover your face as you let some tears stream out of your eyes and on to your cheek. Zayn places his index and middle fingers on the bottom of your chin and his thumb on the top and lifts your face so you would be looking at him if your hands weren't covering your eyes. Zayn moves your hands slowly away from your face and wipes away your tears with his thumbs. "I love you. But why didn't you tell me?" As he looks you in the eyes.