One is dying to stop living and the other is dying to start. Soul searching led them to each other, when they finally collide how will they navigate their new world together.
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"Tomorrow's my birthday." I say tiredly into the mirror trying to convince myself that I deserve happiness. No matter how many time my pops tell me I just can't get happy. It's like I wanna be happy so bad and I be for real trying but i'm just not and I can't force myself to be.
I'm fucked up.
The only time i actually be okay is when i'm not sober. I'm tryna cut down on smoking but it's hard. It hit different knowing that you the problem. I'd end it all if I wasn't all my dad had.
Sometimes I think he do want me to just leave.
"Tu!" I heard my dad calling me by the middle name I told him not to call me yet he refuses to just listen to me because he's the adult here.
"Not even gone respond to him bruh" I said to myself walking down the stairs. He was sitting on the couch in my spot.
"Dad please get off the couch right there you know that's where i sit. We had an agreement you can sit anywhere but here!" I said probably red in the face.
He smirked and moved from the spot and to his side. "Next time answer me when I call you Tu." He put extra emphasis on Tu.
I ignored him again going to the kitchen putting my anti depressants in my mouth.
"I'm bout to go to Mahlik house" I said without looking at him waiting for him to tell me I can leave.
"Alright be safe and don't bring no fast ass girls to my house either." He said knowing I wouldn't do that.
Just wanted to have some kinda control.
When i got in the car i spit the pills in a ziplock bag with the rest of them. I'm not taking no pills that make me feel worse than what I already do. Shit is pointless. ____________
"Welcome!" Mahlik said with a big smile inviting me in.
"Wassup." I said walking in going to my spot seeing a girl belongings on it.
"Who stuff this is?" I said pointing at it.
"Oh that's my homegirls stuff," this girl I didn't even notice at first said. Now that i'm paying attention his living room full of niggas.
I looked at him then walked back to the hallway motioning for him to follow.
"Hold on y'all." I heard him say to his new friends.
