Poems

choking child

your choking me, parents,

you wont let me breathe.

im trying to find my feet,

but i cant feel my legs.

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you try to stop me seeing them,

but you cant always win.

im trying to be myself,

but youre taking that away.

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why are you doing this to me?

im not going to survive.

i thought you loved me,

im supposed to be your child.

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you say that you're helping me,

you've done anything but.

i'm going to make it on my own,

with no one's help but mine.

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you never wanted as much as i do,

so you dont understand.

you come out with nothing,

but i want everything.

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you never had the stress that i do,

so dont shout when i run out of time.

run out of time to be your slave,

and to do everything you want me to.

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in reality i barely get enough sleep,

i can hardly function in the day.

yet i still manage to do all my work,

and still stay just about sane.

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but it comes at a cost,

a cost of no life.

i know this is my fault,

for wanting such big things.

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but dont ever tell me that its my fault,

when you get angry.

i didnt ask to be here,

i didnt want to be a choking child