Untold words

Part 3: Unchangeable

Having few friends that remains on your side is fun and exciting, not until they found someone new
Who is better to have than you

Attitude is more reasonable
Intelligent, pretty, and not moody like you
Prefer to say good things and cheer them up
instead of your frank words that hurt them
A person that can lighten up the mood
when they are sad and down
Same vibe like yours but better personality
Give proper advice than saying hurtful sermons,
Yes that new found best friend is better choice than you
That person is not bipolar, their happiness stays for a day or two
unlike you, when you're mad you always does your "not approachable look"
and they don't like it.
You're not approaching them when your are not in a mood,
You also hate talking, you're eyes always glare.
Sometimes you don't have emotions, in short
You are not the ideal friend they're looking for

You say unnecessary things
You even try to correct their mistakes,
not knowing that you have many mistakes
to correct than them.
You're trying to change their bad deeds for their own sake
but still disappointing that you can't even dare to change yours
And also you're not taking things seriously
you like commenting and responding in a philosophical way,
or whatever they call it and obviously they don't like it

You're talkative but your words are sometimes meaningless
Unlike their new friends they'll just talk if necessary

You're always emotionless outside
But when it comes to friendship you're always emotional inside
They don't see it though,
and only you can feel the pain.
You always jealous on small things,
You take things seriously when it comes to them
You make things hard to forget 'cause you're over thinking
And your friends are tired to understand you,
So please stop
Stop pushing yourself to them
You' are not even worthy to have as a friend
You don't reach the standard they are finding
as an ideal best friend.

But still, you have valid reasons why you're like this,
why you're having this personality around them
It's because you are you, you don't need anybody else to proved
yourself to anyone.
Youre showing what you really are and that is the excellent
way you have as a person
You are not plastic, you are not masked, you are not covered
Youre showing the real you not someone else, not even a copy

You're jealous sometimes 'cause you don't want them
to find someone new, to replace you
You don't want to be alone again, to start again
You're afraid to be left, afraid to be lonely.

You always talk frankly just to show them
that you are sincere on what you're talking,
you don't like copying someone else's way of telling truths
And sometimes you are bipolar, you're moody,
and it's a sign that you have your own signature as a person
That you don't like being approached when you're not in a mood
But another reason is boredom, people don't like talking to you
so you prefer to shut up and kill boredom on yourself.