My Crazy Life

He's Back

Tony stares in my eyes demanding my attention. "TALK TO ME!" He said.

"I'm scared." I responded. 

"Scared of What?" He asked.

"Tony, I don't want to get hurt. I never wanted this type of life."

He grabs my hands and asks, "Do you love me?"

Feeling my heart hurt from him even having to ask, I look away. He grabs my chin and pulls me to face him again.

"Do you love me, Babe?" He asked.

I want to run out of this room and never look back. I'm too smart for this. I'm educated and a professional woman. I don't need this at all. But before I could run or jump out of this scene, my lips parted and I said, "Yes Tony, yes....."

Tears start flowing down my face as I come to a conflicting cross road. I love him so much and I never felt anything like this in my entire life. I am terrified of his lifestyle, but I'm more terrified of a life without him. Tony wipes my tears and slowly places his mouth on my neck and toward my ear breathing as he whispers, "I love you too Babe, and I will die before I let anything happen to you!"

"Tony, I don't know what you want from me. I never thought in a million years that I would have to be in the middle of this shit. And my brother! I can't believe that he has been lying this entire time." I said. 

Tony looks at me. "All I care about is you and me. I don't want to lose you. I was trying to protect you."

"Protect me?" I asked.

"The less you know about my business the better it is for you. I always separate my business and personal life especially after meeting you. You are my weakness. And there are people who would want to get to you to get to me."

My eyes are still filled with tears as I look over at Tony. "Am I in any danger?"

"You are always safe with me. I will burn this city down if anything happened to you. I love you!" He replied.

My mind is telling me to stand up and leave out the front door and never look back. Unfortunately my body is frozen and stuck in place. I fit so well in his arms, and near his heart. I just can't walk away. Tony leans back in the bed and gently pulls me toward him. "I'm so tired Babe, lay with me." He said.

"Your eyes are saying something else Tony." I replied.

He lifts up the cover and pats a spot next to him. I toss my shoes off and crawl up under Tony. "Well just for a little while, I need to go home tonight Tony."

He snuggles next to me and replies, "Whatever you say Babe!" He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to him. His head rested on my shoulder as he held me closely from behind. I must have drifted off to sleep as well, because when I woke up, it was the early morning hours. I jumped up and grabbed my shoes. It's a miracle that Tony didn't wake up. But if I can get out of here quick enough, I can make it to work on time for a change.

I quickly made it down the stairs and was almost at the front door. But as I struggled to put my shoe on, I tripped and woke up Rob who was sleeping on the couch.

"Aw..Walk of shame?" He said.

"Be quiet Rob!" I replied.

"So where are you off to this early in the morning?" He asked.

"I need to get home so that I can get to work." I replied.

Laughing he responded, "You have a job?"

Feeling annoyed by his humor, I said, "Hell yes, I have a job!"

"Sorry, I just never seen you go to work before." He said.