𝙼𝚢 𝚂𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚂𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜#𝟻 |𝙷𝚊𝚗 𝙹𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚐|

21

Jisung's POV

"Jisung, drive carefully" Hyunjin reminded

"Yeah" I smiled

"Text us when you get home" Eunji said

I nodded and started driving. It's hard to pretend I'm fine in front of everyone. I don't want them to think that Dasom did something again. I don't want her to be criticized by everyone. She did broke my heart but that doesn't mean I will do something to her. I will slowly show everyone that Dasom and I stopped seeing each other and we're friends.

As soon as I arrived at home, I went to my room. I changed my clothes and lied down on my bed.

"The same feeling I felt two years ago" I sighed

I opened my phone and looked at my wallpaper. It's Mom's picture with Dasom back then.

"Mom, do I really need to feel the pain for the second time? You and Dasom left me two years ago. She came back but she's going to leave me again" I whispered as I started crying

This is the picture when we had a family dinner with Dasom. Mom called it as double-date. She really like Dasom, she even told me her plan for our wedding. She wants us to have a twins, a boy and then a girl.

Minkyu calling...

"Yeah?"

[Are you okay? Do you want us to go there?]

"I'm fine"

[Are you sure? Does your Father know about you and Dasom?]

"He doesn't"

[We're worried. Everyone knows that you and Dasom got back together but now... What are you going to do?]

"I don't know"

[Take a rest. I'll call you tomorrow]

"Thanks" I said and ended the call

Someone knocked and opened the door. I quickly wiped my tears and sat on my bed as I saw my Father entered my room.

"Are you okay?" Dad asked

"Yeah"

"You're not. You came home yesterday and you look like you just cried. I saw you last night crying. What happened?" Dad

"I'm really fine, Dad. I'm just tired" I smiled

"I am your human diary. You always tell me your secrets, rants and many more. I know you from head to toe. I even know what time you always come home. Time of your bath and what time you are sleeping. I know you so well, Jisung" Dad said and sat beside me, he sighed "And I know you're not okay. Tell me what happened. You can cry"

"I-It's just..." I said and started crying again

"It's okay, tell me" Dad

"Thanks to you, Dasom and I are back together. We spent those days happily and I enjoyed every single minute. I hugged her again after two years of waiting. I told her whay I feel after two years of keeping it to myself. I had the chance to show her my love. I-I'm just happy" I sighed

"You're not happy. What really happened?" Dad asked

My tears started falling nonstop "She chose that guy over me for the second time"

Dad hugged me "It's okay. Maybe you're not meant for each other"

"I-It's okay with me if she's happy with him. But I don't know why does it hurt. I'm trying to be fine and strong but I can't"

"Just cry it out, Son" he whispered while caressing my back

"I didn't know why am I like this. I always let people leave me. I-It hurts..."

Someone knocked "Sir, someone's looking for you"

"Who is it?" Dad

"Dasom" our maid

"Okay, I'll go down" Dad

Our maid left and closed the door.

"Do you want to talk to her? I mean maybe you want to hear her side" Dad

"I already asked her reason but she doesn't want to tell me"

"I'll go down and talk to her" Dad said and stood up

"Can I ask you a favor?"

"Sure" Dad

"Please, tell her that I don't want to see her anymore or talk to her. Tell her to leave me alone"

"Are you sure?" Dad

"I think that's better" I smiled

"Okay" Dad smiled and left my room

I sighed and lied down on my bed. She's going to be happy with him. All you have to do is tell the media that you cheated on her. You have to protect her. You have to help her stay away from criticism. That's it.

Eunji calling....

"Eunji, why?"

[Are you okay? Dasom texted me. He told me that she went there]

"I'm fine. I didn't talked to her. I'm really tired"

[Okay, you should rest]

"Thank you"

[No problem, if you need someone to talk to. We're here just call us]

"Yeah" I said and ended the call

I closed my eyes when I heard the door opened. Someone sat on my bed and caress my cheeks.

"I'm sorry, Jisung. I never did anything to lessen your pain. I'm sorry for being the most useless Father in the world. Your Mom died and I didn't do anything and watched you survive depression. I am sorry for being useless, Son. I should've not let you go with her everytime she ask me. If only I listened to your side, you're not going to be hurt" Dad whispered while crying

Please, Jisung. Don't cry.

"I saw how you helped yourself for years. You helped yourself to be a better person. And you always do what I told you to do. You're fighting with depression yet you still cared for me. I am really sorry for being useless, Jisung" Dad said and left my room

As soon as I heard the door closed. My tears started falling...

Fuck this feeling.