Don't know what's going on, Don't know what went wrong it feels like a hundred years and I still can't believe you're gone carnt sleep at night and it forces me to stay up all night with these bloodshot eyes while these walls surround me with the story of our life I keep trying to convince my self that I don't miss you at all but seems like just yesterday you lit up the world with your smile. You never really liked your smile but I did and I didn't just like it. I loved it, Maybe it wasn't perfect but it was yours and I loved everything that was about you. Your smile, your face, the way you walked, and the way you talked because only you did those things the way that you did them, and no matter where I look I can't seem to find it twice. Every day I'm reminded of you by the songs I listen to, you were the one that gave meaning to them, ever since you left it hasn't stopped hurting. Because I love you but now that love has no place to go. As I lay here ever night I'm questioning whether if you'd miss me a bit, if u had ever felt any love towards me at all if you had ever wanted us to work. I care about you and if I'm also lost one day I'm assured that somebody will always care about you. That's how precious you are and I miss you every day, there is nothing I can do about it anymore. No superhero and no prayer in the world can bring you back. I know that everybody's got their reasons as to why they do the things they do, but you didn't have to do that. You didn't have to feel alone and face things by yourself, I was always there for you and up to this day I will always be here for you no matter the situation, Nobody is perfect, and it's not about being perfect, it's about being you and for me you were the definition of perfect but now I'll never get you back. I will never be able to see another you because that's how magical you were. In over 7 billion. But now you're gone and I'm here. And I wish you were here with me because life can be really hurtful sometimes but when I was with you it felt beautiful and I wanted it to last with you. Darkness doesn't last forever and eventually, it will stop hurting, I keep trying to tell my self that it's just some bad times, I will always carry you in my heart even though I'd rather walk by your side instead. I wish we could see these clouds pass to watch a sunset together but now you're gone hoping for a better life, a happier one, and all I wished was for it to be with me. Without a doubt I miss you, I miss you every night and I have feeling it will only grow stronger as the time passes I guess I'll never get to remove your thoughts from my head maybe someday we would meet again and give this a better chance but till than just know that I love you, and I'll keep loving you till the end of time.
