They say that everyone has this feeling
somewhere deep down inside.
And that even the most difficult to get to
have it as well.
This feeling that depends on trust
and friendship.
That develops over time.
That takes dedication and sacrifice.
And takes will.
The will to Love.
If everyone and everything can feel this,
then why can't I?!
More than once it seemed as though
I was once loved.
But I was mistaken.
Although everything may seem okay,
deep down inside I'm breaking.
Years of rejection weigh me down
and everything inside me is so close to shattering.
All of this pain and abuse
has become the norm for me.
Nobody in this world seems to care.
That's why I hide it and continue my life
Pretending to be normal.
Hiding everything
my emotions and feelings
from everyone.
But somewhere inside
I long to be loved.
It is an everlasting hunger
that is never satisfied.
Anything I do is a mistake or failure
so how am I supposed to fulfill this hunger
If even I can't do so myself?
Isn't it clear that
I don't belong in this world?
What is the point of being on this Earth
if I am not loved
and there is no one to love?
