samantha sat on her bed, rocking back and forward, sobbing. she's never felt so sad in her entire life. she didn't know how to react. she's been crying for a few hours now. she kept looking at teen weekly's instagram post, in shock. she didn't want to believe it but she knew it was real, from the moment jonah texted her. her and jonah have been distant lately because she's been focusing on college and her photography career and jonah has been back on tour for about three months. so it's been hard for them to find time to talk to each other. she didn't know what to or how to feel. she just felt as if her whole world collapsed and she couldn't move. all she wanted was to be happy like she was her senior of high school.
(*)
"knock knock. can we come in?" christina asks.
samantha looked up from her phone to see her four best friends at her doorway. she put her phone down and nodded. they walked in and sat on samantha's bed. they looked at her.
"how are you holding up?" mia rae asks.
samantha hands mia rae her phone. mia rae looks at samantha confused.
"unlock it," was all samantha said.
she opened samantha's phone and saw that it was on teen weekly's post about jonah. she then looked over at samantha and saw that samantha's eyes were watery.
"i've been staring at it since they posted it. i.i.i," samantha says.
nate rushes over to samantha's side. he sits her on his lap. samantha's head on his chest and she's holding on to his shirt. she looked up at him.
"am. am. am. i. not good enough?" she asks.
he didn't expect that her to say that. he looked at gabbie, cristina, and mia rae in shock. they had the same expression on their face.
"samantha rose. listen to me right now, you are more than enough. jonah is just another guy that was born a jerk. he doesn't see how incredible you are. you are perfect just the way you are, you got it?" gabbie tells her.
"look. crying over him isn't worth it because he doesn't see your worth. so, lift your head cause that crown of yours shouldn't be falling," nate says.
samantha laughs. that's what he told her after what happened with jordy. she hugged him and sniffled.
"thank you," she whispers.
"anything for you, hun. i love you," nate says.
"and i love you," she says and pulls away from the hug.
they look at the three girls in front of them and smiled.
"sleepover!" samantha yelled, making her friends laugh.
(*)
"ugh. guys i screwed up big time," jonah says to his band mates.
jonah is pacing around the band's living room with his hands in his hair frustrated. his band mates just stare at him with nothing to say. they've never been so disappointed with jonah. they never had to experience something like this with him. they were very frustrated, not wanting to say a word. that's until zach decided to speak his mind.
"nah shit sherlock. who in their right mind says that they broke up with their girlfriend and goes out with another girl, fully aware that they still have a fucking girlfriend. like who the fuck does that, uh? she's still hurting because of what happened with alex and now this is added to that. god bless dude. imagine her anxiety right now," zach states.
jonah looks at the younger boy and he stops in his tracks. he forgot that her anxiety has become worse because of alex and realizes he has made it a 100 times worse than it already was. he cursed at himself and brushed back his hair. he groans and picks up his coat and car keys. he rushes out the door and into his car.
(*)
jonah parked his car in the sprouse household driveway. he got out of the car, locking in as he walked towards the front door. he inhales and knocks on the front door. he steps back and fidgets with his keys. he had no idea what to say to samantha. he started to freak out. so he decided to turn around and start walking to his car.
"jonah? what are you doing here?"
he heard her voice. he felt his breath get caught in his throat. he turned around and cleared his throat. he looked down, then walked over to the front door. he started playing with his keys again. he looks over at samantha. he saw that she grew impatient because of the way she was position. her arms crossed and an eyebrow raised. he always thought it was cute.
"i. um actually. um. wanted to see if you were doing okay," he tells the girl.
samantha rolls her eyes and exhales heavily.
"i don't even need to answer that. you should know that answer already," she tells him angrily.
she starts to walk inside, when she feels jonah take a hold onto her arm and turns her around. he pulls her close.
"jonah. please let go of me," samantha says.
he lets go of her and sighs. he looks over at samantha and notices she's about to have a panic attack. he gasps softly, knowing that it was his fault. he step closer to her and she shakes her head no.
"p.p.please. g.g.go. j.j.jonah," samantha says in a shakey voice.
he nods and walks away. he never would have thought he would have broken her completely.
