Red. That's what I see. I see red on my arm. In lines. That's what I remember before Luke came in screaming trying to get my to stop. I wasn't there though. Not really.
Now I'm laying in my own bed in my room that I have to myself. Well sorda. Luke stays in here most of the time to make sure I don't try to kill myself again.
It's been weeks since I've found out about my mom. I open my eyes and stare at the white ceiling. Luke rubs his fingers along my sides.
"What are you thinking about?" He asks me in his sleepy voice. I look over at him and just smile. How did this even happen. I've been so happy with Luke.
Yes I know our relationship kinda happened fast but he's the only person I can actually feel something with. I don't feel numb around him.
"Ronnie."
"You." I say. He scrunches his eyebrows.
"Why?"
"Because you're the best thing to ever happen to me." I look back at the ceiling. "I was so stupid to try and to kill myself last week."
"Ronnie-"
"If I had actually succeeded I wouldn't have you anymore and I can't have that."
"Ronnie-"
"I mean I just can't imagined what would have happened if I hadn't sat at your table that day..."
"Ronnie-"
"Or if you weren't at this treatment facility and somewhere else."
"Ronnie!" he says repeating himself for the fourth time.
"What?" I ask finally stopping my rambling.
"I'm in love with you." I feel my breath hitch in my throat. I look at him.
"What?"
"I am completely 100% in love with you. Nothing and no one is ever going to change that. You are the literal light to my life. I was bad before you got here. You helped. And I love you. Yes you're fucked up. But I am too. Hell everyone in here is that's the reason we're here. But you're the best kind of fucked up. You're mine and I want it to be like that forever." I stare at him for a minute. I place my hands on the sides of his face. I pull his face in and kiss him.
This kiss was different from the rest. It was soft and gentle. It was filled with love. A feeling I've never had with anyone before Luke. He is my everything.
I break the kiss and rest my head on him. "I love you Luke." He smiles and pulls me back in again.
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Mad House|l.h(Book 1-)
Fanfic"Isn't that why we're here? We're all insane." He said a smirk forming on his lips.
