Help Me Through It. | Creek

°• ~ Part Two ~ •°

The Next Day

I told my dad I was gonna go home, then heading to school. I couldn't miss it..

He nodded his head. "Just remember I love you son." he put his hand on my shoulder and gently squeezed it.

I felt tears building up in my eyes again and slowly nodded. "I love you too." I hugged him quickly then left the hospital as soon as possible.

It didn't take me long to get home.

As soon as I parked the car, I got out and locked the car as I walked towards my house. I unlocked the door and went inside then slammed the door shut.

I leaned against the door and looked around the house. Everytime I got home from places, I'd always get a greeting by my mom and a glass cup of coffee handed over to me, but this time it was different. It was super quiet.

I'm tired of these tears..

I sighed as I walked to the bathroom and started the shower. As I started to undress, I looked over and froze as I looked into the mirror and seen how red and puffy my eyes looked.

The thought of my mom having cancer made my eyes tear up again. I shook my as I looked away and stripped naked then got into the shower.

I felt the water hit my back as I stared at the floor. I slowly washed my hair and body then stood there under the water.

A couple minutes later, I pressed my back against the cold wall and slid down it while crying quietly. "Stop crying." I said angrily to myself as I pulled my hair.

A second later, I quickly pulled my hands away from my head and seen my hair in my hands.

How could I though..?

I don't know how long I stayed in the shower for.. But eventually, I finally got out.

I quickly put on my shirt.

I'm not even in the mood to struggle with my buttons, so I just randomly button them. I also threw on tight jeans and my shoes.

I went to the kitchen and made myself coffee. I leaned against the counter and stared at a picture of my mom, dad, and I that was on the refrigerator.

Tears build up in my eyes as I stared then  turned my head away and shut my eyes.

I finished a cup of coffee then poured some more in my thermos right before I left my house. I made sure the house was locked up.

I slowly walked to school in this horrible snowstorm.

I could've taken the bus, but this time I didn't want to. I didn't want to be around people and have them question why I looked a mess. And what's going on.

I finally get to school after who the hell knows how long.

I walked inside and went straight to my locker. I tried to unlock it but couldn't. "GAH!" I pressed my forehead against the locker with my eyes shut.

"Stay calm.. Stay calm.. Stay calm" I tried to tell myself as tears rolled down my cheeks.

When the thoughts wouldn't stop, I went to grab my head, but all of a sudden I felt hands grab mine.. I moved my head away from the locker and looked over at Craig as tears rolled down my face. But he wasn't looking at me.