Cruel Summer

LV.

My Poison Ivy

From engineeraresmadrigal@sottodesigns.ph
To aphroditepangilinansotto@olympus.ph

Date 15 May 2020, 12:05 AM

Hi.

I am writing this to you because I could not sleep. Naalala lang kita bigla, and I couldn't help but reminisce of our time together. Yes, it was quite short and impulsive but that does not mean it's not special. What I had with you will always be my heavenly bliss, no matter how sinful and unconventional it may seem for others.

Do you remember the first time that I saw you? You were wearing your Poison Ivy costume and I was a skeleton in a black suit. You were so damn hot with that green dress and fiery red hair that I had no nerve in my body to refuse when you asked me to leave. That was also the first night that we shared together.

How about our first fight when I found out that you were married? Do you remember when I went to see you so I could get to know you better? That was the first time I cooked for you. That was also the first time you bared not your body but your soul to me. You told me what makes you happy, what makes you sad... what you hate, what you love... you let me in. Not only physically, but you have let me seen vulnerable parts of you. That's when I realized how beautiful you are.

But I tried to be 'righteous'. I tried to do what is right so I did not give in. Until I saw you crying in the hotel bar at Ilocos. Until I saw the hurt in you. You never told me why you have such an unhappy marriage but your eyes, your eyes told me all the truths that your lips cannot tell me. How neglected you felt. How lost it makes you feel when people think that you already have everything. How simple you wanted life to be but it isn't.

How you wanted to be you but you can't, not anymore. You do this for your career, for your reputation, for Sid's family, for Sid's name, even though you feel empty by the glory it brings.

They do not see how you are only longing to be loved and understood.

You see now? I really do miss you. I miss you very much. I miss your soft skin, your lips, the way your hair falls on my skin whenever you fall asleep on my chest. I miss how you call my name, your eyes when they look at me, your smile... the way you laugh.

And I'll continue to miss you because I'll be leaving tonight. Ang bilis ng asawa mo, 'no? May ticket agad. I think Sir Sid already knows what's going on between us so I decided that it will be best for me to leave. Para hindi na maging magulo pa. I don't want you to be in a middle of chaos. I want you to have your peace but I cannot give you that because as long as we exist in each other's life, we will never have that.

So here's my farewell to you, my Poison Ivy... my goddess. Know that I'd sin for you and with you all over again.

Yours,
Engineer Madrigal