Her Poesìa

Walkman

This one was written few months ago. I remembered listening to a song or I think I was watching a movie with a "usage of walkman" and then I remembered my one absolute failed crush relationship or was it even a relationship? Haha
Anyway, we were not really close before. I was infatuated by his looks and his talents. Like he was my ideal guy. Although I didn't actually said that I like him, but by the way he was acting paasa si kuya eh, pa fall. I fell hard but he didn't feel the same way. He rejected me even when I didn't even confessed and that was my first ever heartbreak.

Shit parin talaga kapag naalala ko pa yun. Tsk

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My love was only a one school year fiasco
He was from the other school, a cousin of my bestfriend
He got those thick eyebrows and a deep brown eyes
The only conversation we had was only hi's

Seriously though I never felt like that anything before
The butterflies in my stomach, the constant thoughts of him, and the endless hopeful sighs to make him mine for sure
We texted, we had stolen glances from the confirmation seminar
And he let me hear his song composition through this old device called walkman

But that was that, no more but far more less
Once my friend told him I like him and he told me straight to stop
What else could I do or even feel? Nothing because even from the beginning there was no feeling to stress
And for the first time in my 16 years in life I cried feeling like a crap

Years later I still think of him, still feels the tingling feeling
The love, the excitement, the pain, and what could have been still lingers in my mind
But I need to stop when I know deep inside that this one-sided love has only one ending
That he for me will never be my man