The Jerks Blondie

Chapter 17- You are an asshole

Sunday. 

When I woke up on Saturday morning, needless to say I had had the best sleep of my life. I felt like I could sleep in Jack's arms for ever and ever. I had never been that comfortable around anyone else, I mean, I had kissed guys and all, but I had never slept with them or been this type of intimate. 

When I talk about intimacy, it is not a sexual one. I mean being so comfortable around each other than you don't care if they see you on your morning ugliness or if you are acting like an idiot, because you know they won't judge and that they already know the real you.

Yeah, that was what I felt when I woke up in his arms. After that, I stayed there enjoying him for one last time before I got up, changed back to my clothes and got the hell out of his house. I did leave a note behind, because even if I'm distancing myself, I though he deserved at least that.

I got a message from him that day, saying something like 'so you are the type of girl that leaves before the guys wake up'. I didn't answer that, I forced myself to read it through the notification so I wouldn't be tempted to answer. It has stayed that way, an unopened message from the boy I like.

I don't know how his date with Daisy went, I didn't dare ask Isi about it during breakfast this morning. Daisy wasn't there, and I haven't seen her since, so either she is just so caught up with Jack that she doesn't have time, or something went definitely wrong. I should definitely be rooting for the first option, or shit just got a lot more complicated.

I'm now making my way towards the common room. It is already 8pm so no one is really here, which is great because I'm in need of silence to be able to actual put my study in order. One thing is for sure, distancing myself from Jack is going to put my grades up, even though they are already pretty high. The next two weeks will be a lot harder than the ones we've got. Firstly because we only have a month before our trip and the teacher wants to get the evaluation done by then.

I let my books fall on the table, lighting up the small lamp beside it. As the light slightly brightens the room, I catch sight of a figure, sitting alone in the corner and looking through the window, too lost in thought to even acknowledge my presence. Blinking a few times, as I try to figure out who it is, I realize it is Daisy.

My feet move instantly as I cross the room to get to her. Her head snaps to me, startled by someone coming near her and she flashes me the smallest smile I've ever seen on her. I sit down close to her, pulling on of the benches that is placed close by.

"Hey"

"Hey" her voice cracks as she greets me and I realize she is crushed...I don't know what happened in the date with Jack but, it wasn't pleasant.

"What's wrong?" Daisy blinks a few times, sighing as she tries to talk without tears falling down from her eyes. I put my hand over hers, in a reassuring way.

"I-I...I though it was all going perfectly" She starts "I mean we were talking and laughing like we do when we are together" my heart tightens as I imagine the two of them laughing with each other "He was so sweet and he was everything I was expecting from a guy on the first date. He payed for everything and opened the doors for me..." that sounds like Jackson, at least the paying for everything, but even thinking about it now, he always opens the doors for me...I guess I didn't really notice that before.

" And then when I was ready to kiss him...he backed away" a tear made it's way down her cheek "It was so awkward...I mean I thought he wanted to but...but" more tears come rushing down her cheek. I didn't know she was so into him, have they even talked that much?

"What happened?" My arms wrap around her, one because I feel extremely guilty and second because I just know she needed one.

"He said he couldn't kiss me because he was hung up on someone else...I asked if it was the girl he kissed for good luck but he said it didn't matter" I feel like I just stabbed her right in the back, I'm feeling so bad, I just want to vanish " He said I was great, Larissa! He said I was funny and pretty and maybe if she wasn't in the picture he would be able to give us a chance"